First of all merry x-mas

Did you get everything you want? or just random gifts?

I realize that christmas died for me when i started to ask for things i need more than what i want.

My holiday spirit seems to get drained when the frustraighting traffic never ends,  shopping malls are more packed than a can of sardines, and the other unenjoyments of the season.

Dont get me wrong, i love seeing my family and the large amount of food, it just seems to be another day really. I think it might the amount of toys i recevied as a child  and as i grew older i grew out of toys (which is semi true), my family didnt know what to get me these last few x mas's, so they resorted to asking my mother and father in what i want a.k.a what i need. That leads my family to buy shirts and random crap i will never use. I will say i got a few unexpected gifts that i was thankfull for, but they were from my parents.

 Im not a greedy person nor do i care about continuedness attieon from my family. I just dont want to think that santa got me a jar full of slim jims..which happened, thanks santa.

I guess what im trying to say in this long ass blog is, that as you get older christmas turns to a chore, which slowly kills the spirit.

This is only my point of view, Im sure there are a few of you who got what you wanted this x mas and enjoyed it very much so dont think im trying to say humbug to all joy this season.   

But for me i still remember the day santa died in my arms..after i killed him, it was about 10 years ago. I dont want to think of the hoildays as a chore, dogma, or distance family pretending to really know me and buying me gifts. I just want to spend time with them, no money involved, no gifts, and no church.

Just a few bottles of wine, pently of chairs, and a fire place.