Recently it has reached my attention that it is near impossible to get what you want, or at least what you expect. When I decided to take a quarter off from school and move back to Columbus, I was expecting to find an apartment of my own (or shared), a promotion at work, and a reciprocated love interest. None of these have been presented to me since moving back home. I live with my mother; despite my recent raise I was not promoted to the position I expected - so I can't even afford a place of my own - and the issue of love has become too complicated to even discuss anymore. I just get overwhelmed sometimes when my expectations aren't reached. Alright, so I have a place to live, friends to hang out with on occasion, and a decent job (for what it is).

But something is missing, I'm not quite satisfied. It terrifies me that the rest of my life may remain with something missing. I'm just not as happy as I was my first quarter of college when everything was new and pleasing and I was still a naive, sheltered 18-year old. Maybe ignorance is bliss? But I would rather learn about the world and my life in relation to it.

So there is good and bad in everything, and sometimes you just have to deal with it the best you can. Life sucks.