I sometimes feel like I need to mentally prepare myself to listen to certain songs…but this week I've felt like I’ve needed to mentally prepare myself to write a few…and to embark on the next 10 weeks of my life.

I’m not 100% sure what happened, but when I got home this week, I was extremely confused about my life and wondering a little about my significance.  It was one of those things where you don’t get out of bed until 2pm, don’t feel like eating, and don’t hit up facebook. J I don’t want to admit it, but my mind wondered to getting a “real” job, shutting down Grassrootsy, and quietly digressing.  Why.

I can’t seem to get over the awe of knowing that everything is somehow related.  I think we all find unlikely connections between songs, experiences, and feelings.  And the above confusion specifically has something to do with spending life in close quarters with 3 others, sharing music with a couple hundred random people spread across the east coast, and feeling like I’ve left a piece of myself in the homes of the people who welcomed us.  It’s this overwhelming feeling of wanting to experience the whole world, wanting to meet everyone, spend time with strangers, and live with people you’d normally never cross paths with.  But ultimately, you’re only one person, and you’ll barely scratch the surface…because the world is too big for one lifetime.

I think one of my biggest weaknesses is relying too heavily on my independence – my ability to be internet-saavy, a relatively good communicator, and someone who knows what she wants (for the most part).  Living with people changes things…but in a very good way.  You start to care a little bit less about what you want, priorities change a little, and you’re forced to re-evaluate b/c the people you spend time with become your mirror.

So…here’s a song that I often need to mentally prepare myself to listen to. It’s called “What Sarah Said” by Death Cab for Cutie.  I hope you read and understand these lyrics…and I hope you better understand my thoughts when you finish reading these lyrics. And I hope you will stay tuned, as the next 2 ½ months involve me laying low, writing some good tunes, and beginning the recording process for my new CD.