Okay for those of you who I haven't talked to in awhile this is a refresher course on me.  The past 3 years have been a real challenge.  I lost my job after Katrina that I really loved and I miss it lots. It was challenging and I worked with alot of good people, we were definitely an odd collection of individuals but it worked!! I helped a friend out in his accounting office get caught up after hurricane and I loved it too but I knew it was only temporary.  I got another job working for a large Landscaping company that contracted for the casinos, it was interesting but it didnt last either .  So for the 1st time in my life I lost 3 jobs within a year which was not an easy thing to handle.     I'd been working since highschool and had never been in this position before.  So I just learned to breathe and let God handle it, which most of us know is a hard thing to do.  You have to be faithful enough to just say Okay Big Guy you just reminded me of how small I really am its back in your hands now. 

It worked to say the least my previous employer who I'd worked 13 years for called me and wanted me back and with some careful thought I went back to the insurance industry which we all know right now is not a fun place to be, but I figured its where God wanted me to go for a reason.  Well guess what He knew what he was doing because I started back in the later part of 06 and wouldnt you know I herniated another disc in my back and I had to have my 2nd back surgery in Jan 07.  I also was dealing with the fact that my best friend Sharon had just been diagnosed with Cervical Cancer and was given a poor prognosis. Alot of people may not know what her diagnosis did. It just leveled us!!!

I recovered from the back surgery to go on to have a total  in 09/07 myself due to endometriosis, so to all the females out there reading this please I cannot express it enough please go get your annual checkups!! It is so very important!!!!! Stay on top of your health, if you think something is wrong find a doctor who will listen to you and don't stop till you are satisfied...  

While recovering from my hysterctomy and crying on a daily basis inside because I felt so guilty that I could not do more for Sharon. Its just odd we were so close for so many years and here it is she was fighting for her life and I was struggling to maintain a semi normal one, sometimes you want to say why but you know GOD knew we both needed to learn to depend on other people instead of just each other, I guess he was preparing us for what would come in Dec 07. I was sitting at work when my baby Raven sent me the text I'd been dreading receiving, but it came.  You know when someone is diagnosed with a terminal illness you think okay we can handle this but losing her knocked some of the life out of me and her familt. There are still times today that I think oh let me call her and see what she thinks of this.. I still have her in my phone, stupid yes and Im sure she is laughing at me right now but she always knew I was the sentimental emotional one.  HAHA!! For those of you that read this, mend friendships, let the little things go, find time to keep in touch there are reasons God brings these people into your life they are lessons for us!! Take time to learn them... Pay attention..  Okay now that I have cried thru typing that part I will move on! 

I found out in Nov 07 that I have Adult Congenital HIP DYSPLASIA.  I went to a local well known doctor to have him tell me he couldn't find me help and he didnt want to just send me to another local dr because they would just do a hip replacement and at my age he didnt recommend it because Id have have another one in 15 to 20 years, so off I went to Mobile.  I went back to the Dr who did my first back surgery but also treated my daughter as a baby for hip dysplasia.  I trust him, he's honest and he said Id one the most interesting case of the year award!   Hooray for me !!! Anyway after sending everything off to another Dr at John Hopkins in Baltimore, I finally got an answer back just last month as well as issued my own wheelchair.HAHA!!  I have to options travel to Baltimore or go to Little Rock Arkansas, I chose Little Rock.  I cose that for distance and because thats where my Dr said he'd send his wife~! Gosh I hope he likes his wife I didnt ask him that !! HaHA  So now I wait again for all the red tape to get thru. I accept there is a reason for my wait.  Life is not easy for me its painful everyday. I still get up and go to work everyday because I refuse to give up but there are days I really want to.  I missed my highschool renuion because I couldnt walk the distance to get in there and I refused to show up in a rented wheel chair . Lesson learned Pride makes us miss alot of things!!!  Some days I have better ones than others, but somedays it feels like my thigh bone is shooting out the top of my thigh.. I get frustrated and aggravated because I can't do ALOT of the things I use to. It can be depressing and it can be humbling at the same time.  So know you have a small insught into my life over the past few years.. I actyally left out alot but oh well Im old I forget things haha !!     I still love you all MOST!!!!!!

T

PS I czannot be held responsible for any mispelled words or incorrect punctuation. Im old and medicated ha ha give me a break!!!!!!!!