It scares me.
It scares me that you.
It scares me that you are my first thought before the tea kettle’s hot
And the last thought before candied cotton dreams
It scares me that now I picture his and hers
And that I don’t even see anyone else but yours
And that I sparkle when you call me sweetheart
And I keep waiting for you to raise your voice or blow up or over
And I keep praying that the representative is really you and not just a cover
And it scares me how neutral you are
And your off center scares me because I keep waiting for when it’s going to start hurting
It scares me when you miss a beat but you never have
And I know that everything isn’t perfect; but you still make me laugh
And it scares me that they’ll be mistakes
And it scares me that we’ll probably change a lot
And it scares me if we might have a falling out
It scares me to think of losing or good bye
Scares me to think of you lying
Scares me when you were a bit irritated last night
But everything was alright and you’re human
But it still scares me to think of our first fight
And it scares me that I know this isn’t paradise
…Because I keep thinking it might be.
And it scares me that we won’t always see eye to eye
And it scares me that I
It scares me that I
Sometimes
Wanna just run for cover
Sometimes I just wanna say never mind
Because I’m scared
I’m scared that you’re everything I’ve ever ever dreamed of
And I was scared to love you and I’m scared of being in love
And I’m scared you won’t be faithful because
There are so many beautiful women in the world
But it scares me how much I love being YOUR girl
And it scares me when you call all the time because I’ve realized
That you are my best friend even when I don’t feel like it
And it scares me that you never give up
That you keep at it; and look at me like “what?”
And it scares me that you give me all the attention I want
And it scares me the unknown…
And it scares me it really scares me that yesterday on the phone …
You said you’re scared of a home together
And it bothered me but I know better ~
But it scared me that I even thought of ever
When I know what that’s like and I said I would NEVER
I know I said I would never never never
But every second I can’t help it
This is different I feel helpless
And I’m scared and I’m restless and I’m insecure and unsure because
Nothing lasts forever
But you’re exasperatedly noteworthy
And you make me gasp and it’s worth it
And even though I’m scared the floor will fall from under me
Or you will outsmart me
And I’m scared when you whisper things in my ear
When I really really really want to hear them…
And I’m scared that I trust you with my whole heart
And I am scared that having so much trust will break me apart
Scared of the fall
And it so happens I’m
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And it scares me that I’ve never felt in this way at all
It scares me that one day you might not be sure
And it scares me one day that you might get bored
And it scares me it scares me forever scares me so hard
…But not having your forever really scares me much more
day 28