Everything’s ok. Everything’s alright and amazing and mediocre and being an open book perhaps has fewer benefits than I thought, nonetheless I’m unchanging. The wants are catching up with the needs and the maybes

I’m wondering if cough drops expire.

I usually care more than I sell you.

And want more from you than I tell you.

I’m tired.

Every day is different today I’m whining.

Nothing has good timing and the cop;

he was blind I wasn’t speeding.

And everything’s fine. I did my homework and minded my business and got to work on time the rent is paid the dishes aren’t washed. The person I need doesn’t love me for me. The person I lust doesn’t know how to love me. The person I like is probably reading this and the teapots whistling my favorite song.

His smile melts me like a sno cone in yellow sunshine

I’ve…replaced one vice with another

All people aren’t nice or wonderful

And I guess there’s regret but that’s behind me

Everyone’s cheating on everyone and I’m alone when I’m faithful and grounded

I want a little much but I’m not settling for any

And I don’t need expensive love but life costs more than pennies

None of it makes sense none of it makes sense

The world doesn’t owe anyone shit which is the part some people forget

But, everything’s ok. Everything’s shining diamonds.

Life is shorter than I need reminding of

Debt is the devil and sacrifice is his cousin

Stayed up half the night with worry spent most of the day in rush

His laughter is wizardry, I think I’m sunk

And I would still have fallen in love if I wasn’t drunk

…so I drowse…

And some of these feelings I won’t allow myself to

Sometimes I wish I could go back and make different choices for you

Sometimes I wish I could go back and make different choices for me

This was honey on a paper cut

There was no reason we couldn’t have agreed to disagree

And now it’s all happened life has happened. Life doesn’t go in my specific pattern or have the magic I thought it had but all I can say is I’m fine. Everything’s fine everything’s alright everything is what it is

And then silence.