it's been a very long time since i've written anything meaningful, or even done anything of a similar such. the truth is since key left us something inside of my heart has been lost. i gave up on everything i was and tried to be what someone else needed, stay close to this one and she'll be safe... the dreams ended a long time ago, i'd wake up in a cold sweet as she touched my skin or whispered in my ear. realizing the reality and snapping back, in the waking world she's only ash. failing at my attempt to be there for anyone, i sit in an empty room full of all our stuff. half of my current grasp on existance currently over seven-thousand seconds away from my soul, remembering when she said she would stay makes my god damn head twitch. less than a week ago and i did nothing at all in the wrong for once, so what's the point of trying to give a shit...i'm about two nerves away from completely giving up... so in this brief spazm of text that began with a death and ended with the terrible twist of events that pulls my stomach into my neck, i've discovered nothing and accomplished nothing.

fucking beautiful