I can't fall asleep.  But, I can't stay awake either.  I don't know how in the world this is going to play out eventually.  But, I hope it resolves itself soon.

How is it that I'm this way?

I don't know.  But, I'm trying to work and I can't keep my eyes open.  Then, I try to fall asleep and I'm laying here wide awake.  I'll probably crash and that will be about the time my phone starts ringing, someone knocks on my door and the world literally seems like it will fall apart without me.

I have a screenplay to write.  I have a book to publish.  I have websites to promote and I can't get one of my websites to stay up for long.

It's not my servers fault really.  I thought it was at first.  But, then I read some of the messages on their forum that is hosted independently of their sites.  They've had their share of users up to no good.  Jamming the system.  Taking up unlawful space.

One user published a paypal phishing site.  That will get your servers shut down in no time.  They resolved that issue and booted the user.  He's in big trouble I can imagine.

But, what's that doing for me?  I can't get my work accomplished with all that going on around me.

One thing I have really come to notice is that there are plenty of people in this world who absolutely do not care about anyone else.  They use resources that don't belong to them and then they teeter off somewhere without contributing or putting back in any way.

And it's more than just one person lately.  It's been a handful that I have experienced myself.  Maybe that's what's keeping me awake and yet feeling so drained that I would just die for a good night's sleep.

I'll probably crash as soon as I get things off my chest.  I hadn't thought of that until just now.

People who have money in their pockets and ask you for some of yours because they say their broke.

People who lie to everyone about everything because they are trying to hustle everyone.

People who use the love and care of others to take advantage of them.

People who think they are above you just because they found a way out of the ditch they were living in for years.

Yeah, I think it's starting to work.  My eyes are going dim and a peace is settling.  I think I'll put these thoughts on hold for now...

But if I can't sleep, I'll be back to continue.