"That hit hard! I didn't see it coming, wasn't thinking about it, didn't expect it."

"No... I don't want to take roll... he's not here... so PLEASE don't ask."

"I moved over when he started the class... Now I'm back in this chair. This doesn't feel right."

"He's not gonna wake me up during the next film."

"This sucks! I keep looking over."

"I'm not gonna enjoy this class much anymore."

"They're handing around postcards. They say stuff like 'Wish you were here.' It's not ironic, it's... painful."

"I should ask if she knows or if I can get his class dropped."

"This is entirely depressing."

     My friend Andres had to go back to Guatamala. As far as I'm aware, he isn't coming back and even if so, not for a while. I don't even know why he had to go, really. I don't particularly care, I just want my friend back. The quotes from the top of this blog are my notes from Humanities today. In case you hadn't guessed, Andres was in my Humanities class. I found out about him being gone last week and the shock was pretty awful. But, over the course of my life, I've learned to cope with this kind of thing and move on. I hadn't really thought about him being in my class for a while and the day was moving pretty well. Then I plopped my backpack down in Humanities and, all at once, it hit me that he wouldn't be there to disrupt the class with anymore. I left, went out into the hallway, and started to feel very helpless. I thought about how we had been in Algebra class last semester and how happy we had been to get good grades at the end, but that won't be happening this time. I'm gonna have a hard time actually attending that class for the remainder of the semester.

     I'm sorry for the depressing blog. Ignore it, and please don't feel sorry for me, I'd hate to get one of those "Aww, that really sucks for you" comments. Rather, I would ask that you pray for Andres, though I'm not sure what to pray. Pray for Heather (his girlfriend, who I know he loves deeply), I think this has probably been hardest on her. And pray for Rachel, they are so close and share such a special bond. I think "sibling" might be the best way to explain it. Thank you to anyone who will.