I was doing some thinking today; lately, about faith and spirituality, religion and the such.
I've actually, I mean, sincerely put forth effort towards understanding this 'mystery' Years, days and nights of thought, pondering, investigating, deducting and observing trying to understand, come to grips and GET what’s actually going on. The purpose of it all, the purpose of my LIFE, your life, everyones and the possibility of something after life. Cuz if im gonna burn in hell for all of eternity in damnation due to some silly mistake than I better for fucks sake get it RIGHT before I die. yknow just try and figure it out. Figure it ALL out, to avoid such punishment.
Well, good news, I have. It took all of my adolescent life and a portion of my adult one but I'm pretty goddamn 100% certain I've got it right. THE answer. And, at this point, in no way can or will I be swayed to think or believe anything else. There is not a single or a million arguments that I can not debunk or logically knock on its flawed ass using mere, simple intellect and reason.
I’m not close minded. I’m willing to listen to your argument, I’m just saying my faith; My strong personal belief in life just makes….sense. Rationally, plausibly. I mean day to day life, my own personal faith fits.
Most Religion is like trying to fit a round peg in a square hole.....
It's gotten to the point where I probably actually understand more about Christianity, this popular belief system stemming from the holy bible, with much more clarity than most Christians. It’s ridiculous. The whole goddamn system is. And, surprise, I'm not Christian. I'm Not. yet I know, am cognoscente of the fine details of their dogma, that a significant portion of people who claim to be Christian are not aware of.
It’s all because I have, or at some point had a severe concern for my immortal soul and needed to know answers.
And I found them, it wasn’t easy. Getting to the absolute correct answers took time. But the purpose of my rant is not about my faith. I HAVE FAITH. And I have a strong spiritual center. I am in no way an atheist nor an agnostic. I repeat I AM NOT ATHEIST and I AM NOT AGNOSTIC.
I only stress this point because it hurts me when people describe Topher as an atheist. Those who obviously think of me as such do not know me. Or not as well as they think they do.
Agnosticism is for lazy people who don’t care. They sit on the fence one way or the other. I’m not on the fence. My faith is set in stone.....
And Atheism is for people who don’t believe in anything at all.
I don’t fit either one of those descriptions.....
To be clear, I don’t believe in your god. I don’t believe in the Christian or Catholic God. I don’t believe in the bible. Or the pope. Or whatever symbol, icon, these “religious” people prefer to worship and chant their cultish mantras at.
And….at the moment, I’m done now. This really isn’t about me or what I believe. I actually meant to write about the blemishes in sin and what sin is. And what Christianity is. This tangent threw me off. Next time I write, maybe it will be a scrutinizing examination of Christianity, hopefully illustrated in a different light than whoever is reading this views it as. In the manner that I see Christianity. And everything I have to say, or feel like writing about, will be complete truth and doctrine and according to the Christian belief. This rant was, I guess, an introduction to sin.