1. I feel this exercise is self indulgent and most people enjoy talking about themselves more so than listening to others.

2. Am surprised that I'm participating in such a narcisistic exercise.

4. Am a social recluse.

5. Having said #4 Am also surprised that I have recieved so many requests and notes to post 25 random facts. and question the validity of thier inquiry and would like to ask, why.

6. I enjoy writing. and like to think of myself as talented in the craft. However I dont care for reading as much these days. I'll read only when all other forms of media entertianment are unavailable.

7. I immensely enjoy video games, yet sometimes while playing them, I become self-concious of the inane pointlessness of playing video games and feel i should stop, go outside. and do something productive and life-improving.

8. I enjoy playing with words and english language. Appreciate profound quotes and well spoken ideas.

9. I feel like my brain is broken half or most of the time.

10. part of my broken brain portion is foreign language. I will never be anywhere near ok at understanding any language outside of english.

11. Another part of my broken brain portion is Direction and memory of location. Notoriously infamous for not remembering where anything is or how to get there.

12. Another part of my broken brain portion is people. most likely if im not interacting with you on a regular day to day bases and havent ran into you for a number of months. Ill forget who you were.
If we were to run into eachother, Id probably vaguely kinda suspect I once knew you from somewhere but be unaware of who you are, what your name is how we met etc.

12. Always unappreciative of the here and now. Im most likely unaware of Today. Yet filled with nostalgia, and wistful melancholy and longing for the good ol days after the day is over.

13. I threw my back out and have had a bad one now for about a year.

14. Having recently moved to a new apartment, I've realized I have become physically inept. Yesterday I was fast, strong, lean with vigor and endurance. Today I have to lay down after 4 flights of stairs. I blame most of this on the back incident.

15. I believe everything happens for a reason.

16. I believe free will is an illusion.

17. fish freak me out. I think fish and things that live underwater are the most alien and monsterous creatures on earth. not to say they are bad or evil. they just look like monsters.

18. Clowns and Dolls make me nervous. Clown-Dolls are terrifying

19. I have a sick fascination with my own phobias so in turn, am incredibly drawn to and fascinated with fish and clowns. and heights, and high speeds.

20. have always had and will always have my one "pillow" I sleep with many, but one specifically is designated to hold, and hug, mangle, and abuse and love till death. once all the stuffing has been beaten out of it. the pillow now more resembles a rag than a cushion. I throw it away and replace it with a new fresh pillow that becomes "the" pillow for many years to come untill destroyed.

21. I love listening to loud heavy metal music. but the hardcore lifestyle and hardcore fans of heavy metal i find to be disgusting and scary.

22. if you are a friend of mine, i probably dont appreciate you as much as i should. And im sorry. After we are no longer friends I'll probably look back upon our friendship and realize how much fun we had back when we were having fun that wasnt being appreciated

23. I go with the flow every day. and thats not working out for me lately so Im working on making my own flow to go with. I predict that will happen once making my own flow happens to be in and a part of the current flow I'm going with.

24. I have figured out the meaning of life. but nobody wants to listen to it, or agree with me.

25. I have had many monikers, aliases and names. I've gone by Alex, Chris, Keeney, Kiwi, in the past and now Topher has taken precedent. Once I find myself a better occupation, and move away from here to where-ever is meant for me to go about accomplishing and doing whatever it is that will become What i do. I'll establish my identity as Zander. I will introduce myself as such, and everyone there will know me as Zander.

I wrote this for me, as a self examination exercise.It was cleansing and beneficial. but I actually spent hours on this damn thing. going back to #6 i enjoy writing, but writing is a painstakingly thoughtfull meticulous process. For a facebook note-chain survey... thing, I obviously worked to long and thought to hard on it. now my entire morning is gone. but at least i have this stupid list to show for it.