its always hard after a long period to write something about how are you feel,what are you thinking and this kind of stuff that nobody will read but today I'm quite lost and confused in my minds.someone one day told me to write to express what i have inside of me.
i'm this kind of man born with a super sense of emotion,its killing me sometimes and i can do nothing when i feel depressed or annoyed because all my thoughts are focused on that.
anyways!
Since I'm doing more interneting,i have met a bunch a new people,of new friends but once again this thing is killing me.
I'm always wondering myself,if all these people are really my friends and how do they feel about me,do they feel the same?
i receive some compliments too about my work and I'm thankful to that but is it sincere?I'm not so sure. is it just a formal compliment back?
it hurts me deeply when somebody who you feel it could be your friend told you something that you think afterward it was not sincere.
But i know of course you can't force someone to love you or your work but i really would like more sincerity.
even if its hurt i wouldn't hurt more than a fake compliment and smile.

i'm not feel encouraged by this behaviour,and keeping that to my mind i just can't.
i can even work when i'm feel so bad i had lot of plans but now i just want to quit everything,burn all my ancients pieces and cry in the cornner waiting for a better hand.

i know its stupid and i just keep going but i'm too much attached to these people and their support help me a lot to feel some relief.