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J.A.M.♥



Last Updated: 12/10/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 23
Sign: Scorpio

City: FARMINGTON
State: New Mexico
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/7/2008

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Melanie (1)
DARRELL (1)
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 

Current mood:  bullied
If one more person tells me "Julie you've lost your free spirit." Or, "You're not the Julie I remember." I may just loose my mind.

I'm sorry that I don't do drugs anymore, that I'm not a maniac beggin to be put behind bars, and that I settled down. I was tired of living each day for nothing, with no future, with nothing to look forward to. Some people do grow up!

People find it so hard to understand that I want the white picket fence, I want to bring lemonaid to my kids playing in the yard. I want to be a functioning member of society with a great job making good money to support the lifestyle I desire. It's the fucking American Dream People!

I'm still the Julie I was 5 years ago, with a love for life and the wonders in it. I'm still the loud eccentric Julie doing and saying anything she can for a laugh. I'm still the Julie who loves doin the helecopter head bang to the heaviest metal music this world has ever heard.

So friends, if you really are my friends, accept and SUPPORT my lifestlye. It's what makes me happy,  and it's given me a drive to succeed in all I do.

I love you all, and miss you...

Julie
2:40 PM
 
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Melanie
Melanie Tindell

 
How sad that people can't see you for the wonderful person you are when the drugs aren't there.  Kind of sick, really.  I think it's a testament to your awesomeness that you can still be loud, eccentric, funny, sweet, and silly Julie while SOBER.  That means you really are that just naturally great and don't need the bad shit to stay that way.
And it sounds like they may be afraid of losing some of their "awesomeness" if they're without it.
High on life, Joobs Boobs, high on life.

 
Posted by Melanie on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 3:58 PM
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J.A.M.♥

 
Thanks Mel, I appreciate the support. And I want people to know that this isn't a direct attack to anyone. MANY of my friends have said this to me over the past few months and it's simply getting old, and yes, it hurts. I loves you Mel! <3
 
Posted by J.A.M.♥ on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 4:09 PM
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♥ A & C ♥
Amy Dixon

 
I know Im one of those people who said that because we're hundreds of miles away from each other, but when you told me all the things you want and your dreams, I totally got it. Me and Christy both talked about it and people do change, but life is a growing process. I too have dreams of a family and the white picket fence life. I see you havent lost the Julie we all know and love, youre still the same, but as you told me... theres a time and place for everything. I relate to you alot, ppl tell me Im not the same either, but generally the ppl who say that are the ppl who I got high with and who knew the 'crazy' me. If anything Julie, you've become a better person and I love that about you. I love that you've grown as a person and grown into your age. You do have drive and motivation in your life these days and Im proud of you to say the least. Nothing but love for you my dear <3
 
Posted by ♥ A & C ♥ on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 4:31 PM
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J.A.M.♥

 
Thanks Amy, I appriciate that. I love you and Christy so much and I know you two are on the right path as well. <3
 
Posted by J.A.M.♥ on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 5:16 PM
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The Pros and Cons of Breathing

 
I'm glad you turned out the way you did. If it were the other way you were spiraling towards, you wouldn't get anything out of life. You've grown up and joined the REAL WORLD. I think a few people should join us there, don't you? It's nice having nice things and having the life you want without alcohol and drugs fucking it all up. I mean what kinda person REALLY wants to live that life? It's time for THEM to reevaluate themselves.

 
Posted by The Pros and Cons of Breathing on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 4:33 PM
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J.A.M.♥

 
Thanks Claire, I loves you <3
 
Posted by J.A.M.♥ on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 5:17 PM
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Jenn
Jennifer Gibson

 
I am actually quite proud of you. You'll always be the free spirit. You're just using it for better things now!!! I can't wait to see your kid doin the helicopter at preschool LMAO!!! I LOVE YOU JULIE!!
 
Posted by Jenn on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 6:51 PM
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J.A.M.♥

 
lmao! yes my youngins will learn to headbang at a young age :D Miss you Jenn.
 
Posted by J.A.M.♥ on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 - 7:01 PM
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DARRELL

 
I remember when I changed my life and got away from drugs (in the metal music band member life, drugs are every-fuckin-where);  I lost a lot of my so-called "friends" and it was hard.  I was alone for a very long time.  I made new friends though, and now my life has value and meaning.  Welcome aboard...I know it can be hard, but I am proud of what you have made yourself see.  Hang in there and your real friends will rise.  You can always count me among them.
D.

 
Posted by DARRELL on Friday, October 23, 2009 - 7:55 AM
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J.A.M.♥

 
Many thanks D. Here's to sobriety! Coz we are fuckin above that shit.
 
Posted by J.A.M.♥ on Friday, October 23, 2009 - 2:33 PM
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