Sometimes I feel a deep anger inside of me, sometimes I get so mad anything could happen with me. I can keep it on a controlled level for the most part. But I don't know why I get so mad, it seems like sometimes everyone deserves to be punished because of their actions, and I am the punisher. If you have ears I expect you to listen to what the fuck I say, if you have eyes, acknowledge that I am angry, and leave me the fuck alone, and get out of my way. Its best people leave when I get pissed off. Everyone says you can see the anger in my eyes now. Why do I allow myself to be controlled by my emotions?

When I feel angry I want to hurt whoever fucked up, scream at their face as loud as I can. I can control the violence, but a lot of the time I can't control the screaming. I grip my fists tightly, I flex my wrists, tighten my jaw, my whole body gets tense. Sometimes I grip so tight that the bones in my knuckles and fingers pop.

Usually after I get angry I get headaches and practically nothing stops the headaches, sometimes the headaches get so bad I vomit. Tension headaches, I can feel the veins in my head pound and my temples pulse very intensely. If anyone knows my pain, let me know. I need to hear your story.