Well, thought I'd give this a try... For all my wonderful friends who really care about me, you'll all be very happy to know that I'm doing lots better!  I'm starting a new job tomorrow, nothing fun or exciting, just an easy retail job, a good thing for me to get started back. 

I'm so annoyed with relationships though.  I find that no matter what choice I make it always seems to be the wrong one and I end up hurting myself.  How do you know if how you feel is the real thing?  How do you just listen to your heart and not your head?  I've been in love and I lost it, but now I will always be in love.  I've given my heart away and part of it will always remain with that person.  It hurts to know that they've moved on, when I haven't, and that it's my fault that they had the opportunity to move on. *sigh*  I guess no one ever said life and love was easy.