Change is an amazing thing. With it come amazing new events and challenges as well. Some are for the better and others leave you uncertin, but they are all apart of life. As much as we would like things to stay the same forever, that idea is something of the impossible. And sometimes you are hit with something so life changing that you may never really recover from it. It becomes an imprint in your life, and a moment you know you will never forget.

I can't help but wonder about it. i don't really know if i am strong enough to deal with some things. Only time can tell. Sometimes i am ready to grow up and to start a wonderful life, but then other times, like everyone else in this world, i wish time would freeze and i could just stay this way forever and always. But the reality of it is yet impossible again.

I have been handed a wall of new challenges, of new change, and I am taking it all in within a few months. Can I do it? I think i believe in myself enough to. I was always told that a positive attitude would help you in the long run. When i was little, my mother used to put on this episode of this kiddie show on disney called Dumbo's Circus, and everytime I told her I couldn't do something she would put the tape into the vcr and play the tape on it. The reason for this was because of a song Lily the tight rope walking cat would sing. It was a gay song but none the less that song has kept my positive attitude. It used to go something like this "never give up never quit never say never no way never say (?) never say why never say goodbye instead of trying" it sounds stupid and gay but when you're little things like that do have an impact on you. I try not to be a negative person, I hate negative people and negativity. I think it's because i am a strong believer in hope. I don't believe in giving up. I wasn't brought up that way. Because of this I know that all these life changing events that are going to take place in the next few months will just be another test that life has decided to throw at me. Life has given me a very big test right now. I hope I will be good at it. I hope that I will get through everything in one peice. I hope for a lot of things...