Note to readers: I have sucky grammer.

So as some of you know, the 8th of last month (July 09) marks the year anniversary of Hope and I being officially together. I've wanted to write about my side of the story for a while even though some of it is pretty embarrassing or I just get embarrassed easy. Anyway I thought if I was going to write about about it now would be a good time!
        It's a little hazey to me just how I happened to find her myspace, but it was the summer of 07 and I was just getting into the cosplay thing. I've been into anime and mostly video games for years so it wasn't hard for me to get sucked into the idea of cosplay (that's a whole other story). A baby con came together in June 07 in Omaha (where I'm from) so I went to a thrift store and pulled together a costume of my favorite video game character, Squall Lionhart.  I had so much fun and I wanted to find more people into the cosplay and anime convention thing. I had a small handfull of guy friends into anime and games but that apparently wasn't enough for me hehe.
        I must've been browsing through peoples myspace profiles when I found hers. I remember she had a really cute anime backround and her main picture was of her Rikku cosplay. Her profile was private so I sent a friend request with a message that I'm sure went something to the effect of "you seem cool" or "lookin to make friends into cosplay" lame I know. She added me and I left little, not-too-flirty picture comments like "great pose, looks really good* (I looked back and the earliest comment I could find was July 10th) which was only right since I had a girlfriend at the time >.> But there was no denying how attracted to her I was. Like I said, I only had guy friends who were into the same stuff as me and to find a girl who was not only into that stuff but dressed up in it and was effing beautiful as hell made her kind of unreal to me. 
         Even after breaking up with my girlfriend at the time I tried not to give my crush on her too much thought since she did live in Texas and I lived in Nebraska. But I'd go to her page sometimes to say hey and read her blogs and bulletins about what her, her sis and friends were up to con wise and not. I definately wished we were friends in real life. I took most every opportunity to make myself noticed to her, like when she said she was taking drawing requests from people who wanted to be drawn. I told her I'd draw her if she drew me. She drew me so cute and loved the pic I drew her, and of course I ate up every bit of compliment she gave. I could fill this blog with loads of little details and comments that made me swoon but I should probly get on with the story and maybe I can not seem utterly pathetic... X)
         It went that way for a some months. We'd message eachother now and then, usually starting with me replying to a bulletin. I hung with bros, did my thing, little crushes came and went. Life went on but every once and a while my attraction to Hope would hit me hard. But what could I do? She was out of my league and 15 hours away.
Then in April 08 she put up a bulleting about her getting a cell again and if anyone wanted the number to ask 0.0 So instead of asking I gave her mine and casually said she should text me sometime. Inside I was like "please text me >.<" *sigh* ANYway, a few days later I get a "hey there fella" from an out of state area code. I reply with "I don't talk to people with "555" area codes" they replied "bahaha is that right?"  Of course I knew it was her, and of course I was giddy as an effing school girl. We didn't text much or even flirty at all because I was afraid to come off too strong or creeepy. But we talked enough to fuel my crush on her and make me wish we could hangout.
        2008 was awesome. I had made some friends in Omaha who were down with traveling to near by conventions and cosplaying. I kinda dropped out of the music scene and band that I was in and was totally inthralled with my new found hobby. In May we planned a trip to load two cars of full of dudes and go to Acen. Then it happened, my friend Mark whom I'd met at a previous con said he was going to Akon in Dallas Texas and wanted me to come. Frick yes I wanted to go, I already knew Hope was going to be there but it was two weeks after Acen and that'd be a little hard to afford....  "Eff it I'm going" there was no way I was going to miss out on meeting her. Even if it was just saying hi, I could still have a good time and it was another big con.                 
        Acen came and went and was completely amazing. I had posted a few pictures of my Light Yagami cosplay from Acen and Hope left some comments saying she loved it and to be the Light for her Misa *melt*. She hadn't done Misa yet and hadn't planned when she was going to so I didn't think she was serious. Akon was only two weeks away so I half jokingly texted her "If you do Misa for Akon I'll make your Death Note" (yea I was totally serious). She texted "Would you be my Ratio(Light)? That would be amazing of you! Which Misa should I do?" She seriously wanted to do it! I can't express how excited I was. Seriously like a 12 year old girl. Not only was a I gonna get to meet her but I was going to be cosplaying with her. No matter what I had to play it cool. Stay chill, play it cool, not act nervous as crap 0.0


to be continued.