These are blogs from about two years ago...a.k.a. the old beginings' but anyways i have a lot to catch up on so hopefully i can turn one relationship into a story....my goal is by the end of this all i will have written a book full of hardships,love,happiness,heartache,betrayal,trust, and worthiness! so sit back and enjoy my thoughts.

The day started out okay but ended in such a happiness its hard to describe. When I saw her that night I had to stay I had to know if she felt the same flutter within her as i did that night. No matter what, my thoughts never gave way to the enviroment around me. She sits across from me, what is she thinking what is she imagining? I can only wonder at what prevails within her beautiful mind. She draws in near me the warmth i receive from her body sets the coldest part of my heart in flames. Then i knew this sparkling piece of heaven has set my life in a path taht i will enjoy for a long time. Her lips then softly caress mine and i get a shot to my spine, a tingle of happiness jolts through my body like lighting through a rod. Her soft skin is smooth to the touch and I know now that the feelings i felt for her, flows exactly the same way through her vains. This is the begining of a new start....a new life....My life!

--Another night--
Another night has past and once again she keeps me awake until the early hours of the day. No matter what I cant find myself to part from her presence. So I wait even if I don't receive much sleep, I'll be able to sleep when the last breathe leaves me. We talked about disappointments and forgiveness. Every memory that i share with her now will take a little out of me. Hatching out of an emotional slumber I try not to keep things hid inside. I shall be more of a friend than anything else, thats all I ask for is a friendship of trust and worthiness. But for all those whom know not of great equisites and shear happy feelings, know that you have to embrace one whom embraces you and both shall feel what I feel when I held Codi those two nights. Mores to come, this list will grow. Behold what lies ahead!

--Today-- Today has gone by and thoughts of her roam wildly through my mind. What shall come of this great knowledge? I told her that only if the stars and moon could be given as a gift i would make her own universe full of love and compassion not only with me but with all those whom love and adore her. oh how today is another day without her grace of touch. But on another note just the very thought of Codi's face lifts my day so far above the earth I feel as I am close to Heaven where other angels like herself will surely take care of all the great things in life. Someday ill leave a message in a bottle to remind me that even though some things get sent off or have to go away some day they will return with a warm heart attachted to itself. So until that bottle comes back my way, this is the life i will not stray! Another night another day .

--Last Night--Last night went by and I missed the evening conversations that we had the other nights before. A night has gone by and a missed oppurtunity to here what you have to say. The days here are bland and full of discomfort. All I can think about is lieing next to her and smoothly running my hands across her face,eyes,lips,ears,nose,and finally her cheeks. I miss her kiss and her gentleness. What shall I do when she is not here. Grow lonely within these days? I shall hold on to faith and wait until shes in my arms again. I'm not a poet of any sort but Codi makes my words rhyme as though I were a master poet. This sonnet is only words that go through the heart and out these finger tips. My fingers are worn and need some rest so until the morn has come the story of my sweet Codi must hold off until the morn as well.

--Only You--I can't change who you are. Nor do I want too. You are your own person and thats who I care about thats who I like! Don't let me influence you in doing or not doing things, reach out have fun, do want you want too. I want you to be happy because when your happy so am I. I want to spend as much time with you as I can. I'm not obsessed, I'm not a stalker I just want to feel your warmth, taste your lips and remember your smile. I don't know how you feel probably far from what I feel. Maybe this is just a fling but if it is then let it go on a little bit longer. Let me hold on to you a little bit longer. Let me speak you a little bit longer. Just keep open one day where all we do is be with one another. Wouldn't that be great? I'll sit and wait for an answer. Until I recieve one my reasonings will be the same. Till that time arrives.......my angel eyes!!!

~Your touch~I was alone, waiting with my fantasiesuntil you came, liberated me, and taught me so much about humanity , yeah-yeah yeah-yeah,
I needed you to know you're more than just a one night standand girl with your permission, maybe you can give me your hand, not your romance
Cause it's the way you touch me baby, Girl it's the way you touch me baby, if you want we can talk, all night long, but it's the way you touch me baby.
I was alone, grasping for my sanity, you beauty came free of vanity, opened my mind, gave me your anatomy, yeah-yeah yeah-yeah,
I needed you to know, your more than just a one night stand, I need some supervision, I'm losing all control of my hands, girl at your command
Cause it's the way you touch me baby, Girl it's the way you touch me baby, if you want we can talk, all night long, but it's the way you touch me baby,
come on baby, oh oh yeah, come on baby oh oh baby
You should really know you've got me eating from your hand, and the ship is gonna blow, and baby it ain't goining to end, till your coming
It's the way you touch Cause it's the way you touch me baby, Oh it's the way you touch me baby, if you want we can talk, all night long, but it's the way you touch me baby,
it's the way we touch!

~Simple Kiss~A kiss can be as little as a misquito bite. But her kiss hits me harder than a boxing match! Those little moments that go by adds so much meaning to my life. She is fearless and unbelievable....there has to be some flaw some where....Codi is just to good to be true. And if this is a dream don't wake me up if need be let me die in my sleep so i can live this dream for as long as possible. Little moments like this make a lasting impression. The night has ended and the hippos, gators, chickens, and fishes all give a kiss goodnight.....and eyeball licking...what a CrAzY idea!!!!Check you out on the flip side pancake! A kiss goodnight and a farewell to thee. The night is young and so are we.

~Tonight~Tonight I found out the true Codi. She is heart felt and feeled with warmth and love. The simple chit chats that we share might be stupid and out of whack but thats what i like about Codi you can be yourself, you can be your boring and serious self, lol (inside joke) and she sits there and laughs with you not at you. She is innocent by all standards, and just so yall know i went back and picked up her trust off the road after i threw it out the window;-). But I have yet to meet another like her.....she is just so WoNdErFuL!!!! Even though my words are hard to get out when I'm trying to be serious for some reason I know she knows what I mean and if not then all she has to do is read and she'll find out. This story of Codi will go on for a while....I have no plan to stop now or later on. So with the yammers of llamas and the emews(greyhound like chickens....don't ask but thats what they look like) I bid another farewell night with a kiss from the heart and a goodnights dream may your day be merry and full of great scenes. To Codi the most I do write this letter may you never forget me and always remember to make a spot free every month and twice december. A kiss to thee goodnight and sweetdreams!

~Your Sweetness~Don't think about tomorrow. Don't think about tonight. Don't think about yesterday. Just think about right now! You can set me aside you can leave me and pick me up later but don't ever forget me. As the same for me I will never forget you. Codi you are the craziest and dorkiest chic i've met yet!!! And thats the honest truth. I know sometimes im hard to deal with even when I truly want to play that dancing game, but always remember whenever you want to play we can have a contest lol. I dont care whether im supposed to be here or not. All i know is that you and i are here now, we cant change that nor would i if i had the chance. I'm far from the perfect gent as you might think your far from the perfect gal. But know that you are the perfect gal right here right now. Your smile can make the weakest heart grow and worst of hick up's appear (you Witch!!) but you always make others happy. So i give you those 5 cool points and I wont ever take any out ever....unless you try to give yourself a point then we might have a little problem....lol ;). Well tonight was great......even if i had to spend just one minute a day with you it would equal to 10 days of happiness. So hold on to that and remember never trust a clown if he asks for money....you might not get it back. lol. Aight your glorious to all and you are a bright shining star.....remind me some night and I'll show what star I wish upon every night and You'll know that you come up in half of those wishes along with an "emu" and a "llama" lol. Goodnight to all and remember the best. The night has come and now to rest. For rest is great and so is sleep. Close those eyes and drift with me! Take her away Sandman!! All Aboard! A kiss to you and a wink for luck, dont forget about the toothless duck. Peace,love,Candycanes!

~Now~Lets stop and go over what all has happened within the past few weeks shall we. First for some odd reason I get this urge to chill @ my cousins crib, not knowing anyone else was going to be there, and I see this chic. I've met her before we exchanged a few words every now and then but that night it was different. I was at ease talking with her and finding out that I'm not the only person who likes adult swim. It was merely childs play I wanted so bad to pull her close but I couldn't I didn't want to ruin the moment. So I had to rely on playing footsies in hopes of winning her over. Well it worked! All I wanted to do was hold her close. I got more than that I recieved feelings of greatness and enjoyment. I can talk to Codi withso much on my mind and be myself rather than try to be perfect. I might not say the right things but who actually does. I might seem a little too far fetched but hopefully I'm not. Codi has some how reconfigured the system and rerouted all my circuits to act upon feelings instead of instict. I dont know how long Codi and I will be together my intentions are for awhile and hopefully even after that we can still share a great bond between one another. But I still have trouble figureing her out.....Does she like to be serious or go with the flow? I know I need to tell her personally how I feel but I get all fluttered and anxious and even nervous when I try to be serious. These feelings are hard to cope with but I dont want to lose them because chances are I might lose her. I'm 19 yrs old and I have a settled state of mind. She once asked me how I can trust her without truly knowing her.....how I can put aside feelings for others and hold off with other relationships just to be with her. Well I would. I would try my darndest to do the best I can and to be steadfast in my decisions. But I need her help along the way. Codi is the type of person whom I know I can trust with everything because she is upfront, locked on, cocked back ready to fight. She puts the "Won" in Won-derful! I know I'm probably putting her on a pedestool but I dont care She needs to be there. Everyone sees exactly what I see an awesome individual. I greatful that she has spent her time with me and hopefully I dont falter to my knees in embarrasment(spelling). Codi.....I look into your eyes and the earth begins to rise, oh how you make my heart ache! Even though the clouds covered up my star tonight its still there it always will be...just like you will never leave my mind nor heart. Peace chic till later. I'll Ketchup with you home-fries later! out

~Potato Chips~Is a chip really a chip? I dont know its a hard question to answer. But what i know is that an apple is an apple theres nothing else that even compares to an apple. Now one question that really tickles my mind is--Is Codi really Nichole or is she trying to play too parts in life! We wont really know until we ask her....dum dum dum.....Whoa I'm tired so this is goign to be short and sweet.....Codi your great and full of joy...(sings) joy joy joy joy down in my heart! Where? Down in my heart! To stay!!(finished singing) Ill give 2 thumbs up to whomever can answer this question........Do you know the muffin man? Where can I find him? Goodnight sweetdreams! Sandman come take me!

~Never~Never say "good-bye" to me. I'll wait at the end of the road if I have to. Just tell me when and where and I'll pick you up. But never say good-bye unless you truly are leaving me forever. Dont ever say "I love you" and dont ever expect me to say it to you. Not now at least. Never give up when you havent given it a chance and never go down without a fight! Never let go of your true feelings but never let out of them either. Never chew and talk at the same time If you do I will make fun of you and call you a camel. Never run through a car wash, the first few sprays kind of hurt. Never let someone change your mind. Never let anyone destroy your mind. Never do drugs. Last but not least when you have someone great in your life.....Never, ever let of them because that could be the last! To all the great minds out there know that a mime is a terrible thing to waste so just like a mime endure everything that is unspoken becuase just the littlest smile can do great things! Just like Codi's smile has done wonders to me! Thanks for the Band-aid chicmyster!.....Hand salute....Ready Too!! Forward! March~ left, left, left, right, left~ Till Tomorrow ;)

~Something about you~I don't know how to explain it,
If only you could truly see,
How much I really care for you,
How much you mean to me.
I look forward to seeing you every day,
The grin that belongs only to you,
When I see you I can't help but smile,
There is just something about you.
When you put your hand in mine,
My heart suddenly beats faster,
I wish I could tell you right then and there,
That my life could never be better.
When you wrap your arms around me,
For a simple, gentle hug,
I want to stay in that moment forever,
And tell you how much you really are loved.
When we gradually come close enough together,
Our lips touch, a kiss,
Nothing around us seems to matter,
Because there is nothing sweeter than this.
No words could ever express how much you mean to me,
I hope you have these feelings for me, too;
I can't figure out just what it is,
But there is definitely something very special about you.~Happiness~This world is hard enough by yourself. Let someone else accompany you on your journey through life. Friends come and go but you I know will stay no matter how hard i push you away i know you will always stay. you lit a light within my life and now not even the strongest wind can blow it out. Not even those around us can smother out the light you lit. only you can blow it out but if you do my path will not be lit and ill stumble and when i fall it will end all of sanity.......what i'm tring to get at is DONT BLOW IT OUT!!!!! lol Pwease?!? it keeps me warm inside even though your not here I know that part of you lives inside me. So with that in mind try holding your breathe for as long as possible lol. Boola my little turtle dove!

~The Goof~One day there was this frog named henry. Well henry wasnt really ever liked by anyone when he was growing up but he stuck to himself and pressed on through life. He finished frog high school so he could have a better education for himself. Well as chance has it Henry joined the F.M.L.C. also known as "Frog Marine-Life Corp" apart of the military. He hopped as hard as he could and he finally got back home. While he was at home he talked to a few female bullfrogs nothing special or anything. Until one day before he went off to college he was chillin at his cousin "Vini's" pond when an "ANGEL"-fish appeared and his whole body and mind stopped in time. He would have given anything to stay in that moment. But time pressed on and things just kept on getting better. Its hard for Henry to tell the Angel-fish how he feels because Henry believes that if he tells her his true feelings that it would hurt too much for both since both of them had to part for awhile. So instead of telling her he prays and writes in hopes she would find the hidden secrets sent from his heart within every prayer and writing. But for now he just hops and plays every day. So Henry goes day by day and longs for every moment that he can spend with Angel-fish!




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