Ok, so if someone asked you to leave the world behind and just go... would you?

That's the question of the day. most people never get around to hearing that question, let alone asking it.

our lives, yours and mine. they are what we make them-

- and we can stay or go. take the hands that we are dealt. or we can smack the dealer in the mouth and say "fuck your cards" "and your game, - the whole damn world while I'm at it"

anyway, you can guess where I'm goin with this. and if you know me... you've heard all this before and you hate me for it :)

you may never know the extent of my worried minds plotting. or what was going through my head as i pulled the hood over my face to hide from the blustery wind and your searching eyes.

all my dreaming can't compare to the grey days mourning.

in time we all forget - all our yesterdays will never be enough to fill my wanting. Is there ever going to be a peace to know in the days that come?

its a shame i didn't know my strength sooner. and if i had the choice again.

you or the world

i'd be you.

Maybe it's just me, but you seem to have a way of disappearing when everyone else does. And in the end - i lose the world too.

I got a book once "Waiting for Godot" and for only one reason. In the front of the book a daughter had written a note to her father. Reminding him that just like the characters in the book discover. You can't place all your faith and happiness in one thing - because what happens when that one thing inevitably disappears? - I'll tell you - your whole fuckin world disappears.

I know I don't say the right words, and its not always what you want to hear... and my timing is shit.

I'm just a girl on a mission. To find love - real love.

Not sex, not money, not all your happy lies... But something so intense its worth dying for... and even more then that, it's worth living for.

I guess that's all for now after all your silence.

If your reading this

I love you ;)