drowned in the smoke from our cigarettes
called out from my mistakes
I made long ago
a mixed up language
I cannot understand
please don't reach out
for my weak shaking hands

anxiety is killing me
bleeding out my soul
forgive me of my mistakes
I made so long ago

I am not the same man

we aren't anything
without you here
we can't do anything alone
with still so much to become

we aren't anything without you near
we are all down in self created fear
with so much to become
so much heart
but no one to give it to
you will slowly fall apart

we aimed for the promised land
but got what we deserved
we will always want more
than we are willing to work for
not to be taken lightly
we want you here
you're hiding from nothing
but self created fear

we aren't anything
without you here
we can't do anything alone
with still so much to become

we aren't anything without you near
we are all down in self created fear
with so much to become
so much heart
but no one to give it to
you will slowly fall apart

believing your lies with full confidence
you just left us here
teetering on soul responsibility
of life and hell
concede to your heart
we don't want you here

blacked out
the poison
a perpetual frozen life
the air
you breathe
you'll find
is intoxicated with your lies