I'm so worried about Mum. Shes been so depressed today. And awhile ago she was crying and then she just left. I'm scared..... She talked to me earlier about things and she told me that someone she knew, knew someone who just committed suicide. She said that sometimes people just drive you to it. And that makes me worry about her. Cause shes all alone right now and shes upset. I mean I'd honestly like to think that she would never do anything like that, but... I dunno. I'm just scared... I let my thoughts get the best of me a lot. I know she wont. I guess she just needs some space from everyone. I guess maybe I'm stupid for worrying that she'd do something like that. But if someone told you they heard of someone committing suicide and you knew they were depressed wouldn't you worry too? Especially if they told you they should just disappear. And that people drive you to do things sometimes. I know I'm worrying too much. But I can't help it. All I have is my Mum (parent wise). I mean its not like my supposed "father" is worth a damn. I mean if he went off the deep end and killed himself, honestly, as sad as this is, it would be a blessing. I love Mum though. I don't want anything to happen to her. I want her to be happy. It makes me wanna cry cause I know she hurts so bad. Her knee has been swollen recently and she's been in pain. And now she's depressed. I wish some how I could help her. Or ease her mind. Ughh... I feel so useless. I want to cry.


Monique