i cant lie if my life depended on it. i have too much hope in everyone being a good person. i dont like reading material that i have not voluntarily chosen to read. sometimes i take on way too many responsabilities at once and forget that i need time to blink.time limits frustrate me. im a neat freak and things need to be organized or the world will crumble. im stubborn. sometimes i get crazy emotional. ive never been considered cold. ive never truly told someone to fuck off before, it takes too much effort and the idea of enemies doesnt intrigue me.mosh pits are tiring. crowd surfing is adventurous.dont chase me ill scream. i could make the hose in the summer time feel like really cold rain when i hold it up. i like meeting new people everyday. i chew trident citrus gum and im learning how to eat properly with chop sticks all the time. i dont get it when people say 'quarter past' when you ask them the time. they assume you know the hour and it makes me feel dumb. i dont believe in north and south because im not a bird...left and right when giving me directions are fine. i get lost a lot. im learning my way around the city. i dont really like to cook, unless its for someone special. i smile at strangers often. i dont think you need to make your bed every morning. i cant stand on my skateboard sometimes. when i dont know what to do with my hands, i carry around a pen or marker with me. so......i always have a pen/marker on me. i pray at night sometimes but other times i feel selfish because too many of us pray only when we need things. i overthink and question wayy to much. i eat when i want to and at whatever time i wish. fuck dieting. its not until the start of every march that i start the workin out thing. im usually not as disciplined. i used to sleep in a lot. that doesnt happen anymore. i used to wake up anxious and nervous. that doesnt happen anymore either. i want to go to africa and ride a giraffe. loud music turns me on, so does anyone who can sing. the swings at the park are my most favorite thing in the world. slides are way too quick for my liking. i bite my nails all the f'in time. my hand is always touching my lips when im sitting and talking. the showers i take create the thickest amount of steam and i could never breathe. i spend way too much time in the shower. i jump into pool water after about 15 minutes of contemplating the idea. the deep end is the best part. i want to go to australlia. i love rollercoasters after 12 years of being petrified of them. i worry way too much about the stupidest shit ever and things i have no control over like disease and the weather. thunderstorms bother me but i like to splash in puddles when it rains. the one image that frightens me the most is that of a building or an area that has been burnt and the skeleton remains. i dont believe in the vanilla side of the girl guide cookies...but i hate chocolate ice cream. my favorite is vanilla with strawberry topping. i believe that fruit and chocolate should NOT mix, and that mint form of any kind of chocolate is disgusting.i have a mating call. i wear my pants way too low sometimes and when called for, i wear my ties up way too tight. sometimes i dress so preppy it hurts, other times im extremly formal and walk around looking twice my age. i bite the inside of my mouth when im nervous and suck on my lower lip. supposedly i have dimples?i love to poke people and tackle them at the most unexpected times. sometimes i laugh so hard that i have to sit down or i'd pee myself. i like to roll around on the grass outside. i love playing catch. i love hitting tennis balls with aluminum bats cause they go so much farther and all the little kids on my street think im god. i like to cuddle people when theyre sad or hurt. making someone laugh is the one healing method i posess. i love to love someone. when you have my heart, i will give you my everything. i dont think im very greedy and i usually dont ask for much, except someones attention. i think the people in charge of our governments are corrupt, even the "democratic" ones.i love to story tell and use my hands and make sound effects. drawing, music & writing will clense you. i like to play in the dirt and wear my hats backwards. i brush my teeth with the bathroom light off. i want to go to germany. i eat way too many cornflakes and lucky charms. the boston red sox are the most charasmatic and most skilled national baseball team in history. i like to study history. i like debating too. stand up comedy is the shiznat. the news depresses me. i think that the world techtonic plates should move quicker then 1 cm every 350 days....so that japan and canada can be closer neighbours.i love my little sister more then anything in the world.i really dont believe in boyfriends. i jumped from the top step at my old house and banged my head at the bottom resulting in a few stitches. i have a chicken pock scar in between my eyebrows which is small, but noticable. i love the smell of gas and used to sit behind the car and inhale it. my parents wish id cut my hair and dress normally, they dont really like the whole 'original' thing. my family is huge, my grandparents mean the world to me and my 23 cousins are the shit. ive never really delt with a severe sickness in my family until my father was diagnosed with RP 3 years ago. i want to learn everything i can, but lately i refuse to read. i never used to procrastinate until university. i refused to have a cell phone until a year or so ago. i dont like being bothered. i hate being told what to do. sometimes ill be the most patient person in the world. other times...my fuse is short. i dont yell a lot. just lock myself up somewhere. last year was the first year i didnt play baseball in 13 summers of playing. i miss it and love the sport too much to just let it slip. i want children. i want a family. im trying to understand and accept the things i can not change and the "wisdom to know the difference". if i could id paint for the rest of my life if money was not a factor.i switched from an english minor to a visual arts minor without telling my parents because they didnt believe in sending me to school for art. they know now...but theyre not crazy about it. i want people to wow me...to intrigue me. i like to put my hand out the window when i drive and make waves through the wind.
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this is as raw as it gets.