Life is really not fair sometimes...

So my family has had the most difficult year of our lives, the loss of my brother is the hardest thing we have all had to deal with. In fact, we are not done dealing with it. Noone in my family can say that we are okay and coping and dealing well, none of us!!!!

You know how life responds to that?

My grandmother passed away this morning. 4 1/2 months after my brother passed. WHY?!?!

My grandmother and I were never extremely close, but I still loved her and cared for her and am going to miss her! The last 2 or 3 years she has been in a nursing home with undiagnosed dimensia if that makes sense. Anytime that I have visited her in the past few years it took her some time to remember who I was after I told her which daughter I belonged to and what not... but it's still not fair that this happened now.

The hardest part about the next few days are
(a) her viewing is in the same funeral home that my brother's was in
(b) going through any funeral this close to my brother's sucks
(c) she is going to be buried next to my brother

I can't do this again this soon. It's not fair. I feel bad for not being more sad about my grandmother passing, but my heart is still too heavy from my brother's death to even think about grieving over another family member.

2006, a year I will never ever ever be able to forget.

Why are most of my blogs sad and downers? I'll work on making some funnier ones when I get back from Bmore...