I'm laying here in bed, looped from foolishly fighting-off the Ambien; it's just I've 'this' much more left to catch-up on, then after another and then I realize, d'oh, it's getting late!  So right now, it's 'blog' time. 

Since I'm no longer sure when time will find me to write a blog, here it goes, grab a cup-of-tea and relax, it's a rambling, messy long one!  ;-P

My life is going wonderfully!  I haven't been personally THIS happy in years!  Much has to do with the fact that I simply love my new job.  I'm getting the opportunity to not just met & help people, but I'm offered the opporunity to exand that relationship beyond them being simply a customer.  For example, one young lady aged at 93, had come in twice before today.  She was struggling walking behind one of those walkers with handgrips & tired along-the-way; today she came in, being wheeled in by two caring women.  Boy was she beeming!  Proud she made it to her seat that fast.  Although she's always in full make-up, her cheeks were thrice as pink as many of us doted on her being able to 'zoom on in'.  The proud look on her face was a tear-jerker, I assure you!  She's just a gem - she brighten the place today ... it was quite obvious & it made her day too!  :) 

As I penned in my affirmations blogs and as an inadvertent result of being (now) almost fulll-time employed, my cyber time hasn't been as prominent as it has in the past. 

The paranormal is something I talk about to people but am I out hunting, no.  Do I miss it?  With all my heart. 

But, again, my life hasn't been happier ... and I'm sorry that's at the expense of my (horrible) email replying, bulletin reposting, para-con attending, commenting, tell y'all how special you are to me ... all has suffered ... but please take near that I AM in a better spot in my life.  As my friend, please be patient.  It's not about me laying at home crying about my sister day-in & day-out anymore ... I'm out living.  So hold that close and IF I've forgotten about/or/missed your email, please don't feel as if you'll offend me ... RESEND IT PLEASE!  Heck pester me ... I need that sometimes.

While at work today we got to a'talkin about people & their different personalities.  When it came around to me I assured them, I don't wake-up grumpy, I refuse it!  I won't be rude to others even if they are grumpy.  That smile on my face as I walk-in the door is just as genuine as the one I adorn knowing I'm on my way home after working a 12-hour shift.  I think they are finally believing me - at first I thought they thought me the 'brown noser' but alas, EVERYONE IS EQUALLY special in my eyes, everyone! 

My family, well, they're adjusting ... my sons are slooooowly learning this is it, Mommy is not going to quit her job to baby you anymore.  They've been great though!  However, with my hours expanding these past two weeks, it's thrown them off even more but they'll acclimate, I have faith.  My hubby & I had a 'head butting season' this morning about some homework that's due to tomorrow.  With my leaving before the kids are up and then home just in time to cook dinner and get them into bed, since he signs-off on their homework etc before the am bus, he generally tells me what they've been up to, ya da ya da ya.  In the mix of ALL this my hubby was PROMOTED (*yay*) which means more hours yet now he's picking-up where I'm no longer here to complete.  Meaning, it's tough on him too!  Sorta chucklin' as now maybe he realizes all that time I was at home, I really was taking care of the worries ....  poor guy though, tough week for both his promo & my hours increase. 

Um, my Kentucky trip with just my mom was awesome!  My family, the same ... most didn't look a day older.  My mom & her bff/sis-in-law (of 65+ years) enjoyed each others company; neither are that mobile so we didn't do a lot except sit around, go through ol' family photos, tell stories, and eat.  My aunt is such a great cook - one of the last of the TRUE good cooks (homestyle).  The moment my mom who has many ailments hugged my aunt good-bye ... the power, the emotion, the moment was, well, I'm speechless ... not tears (although I cannot believe I stayed composed) ... they both said as they hugged it may be their last .... sad .... it's scary, life ... ya either get to die young, with regrets, and many friends at your funeral - or - you grow old, watch all those before you die away, and life your life as a 'countdown' until your times comes and then you've few at your funeral.  It was a surreal moment ... I refuse to believe we won't be back together next Fall, but they just felt as if they 'knew' something when they said that good-bye. 

*COMPOSING MYSELF*

Anyhooz, while I was visting my family down in the holler, to my delight was timed a paranormal convention (VERY rare considering the remote location) hosted by 'Floyd County Paranormal Society' inside the Jenny Wiley State Park's Convention Center/Theater in Prestonsbug, KY.  As my mom and aunt did their ol' lady things, I bailed and hung with some wonderful paranormal peeps!  I'm terrible with names but never forget a face!  So to those with whom I was able to chat with, I wanted to say what a pleasure it was meeting y'all!  You're all A-1 class acts!  I have been to MANY & I mean MANY para-cons ... and what set YOURS apart was you!  Your presentations were honest & candid and most enlightening (I even took notes, they were THAT knowledgeable).   Although I remember meeting at least 50 WONDERFUL people, I want to personally say what a pleasure it was meeting John Marshall (grand host) who earnestly is one helluva great conversationalist; Chris Dedman who is one of the most polite southern para-gentleman ever equalled in grace only by his lovely wife; oh & then there's Mr. 'Blade' who is one cool & pioneering paranormalist, THE coolest I mean he's actually going to investigate my dream:  the TITANTIC; last but FAR from least, my dear & wonderful buddy Jason who oddly accepted this gig unknowing he was traveling to MY neck-of-the-woods.  It was his presentation which put the audience in awe ... talking was down to a hushed whisper at best for when he told how he's thinking outside the box investigating the paranormal by working with comatose patients and how he died for almost 20-minutes as an adult .... one was fearful to make any noise would cause 'em to miss sumptin!  Jason obviously you're one of my bestest-of-friends and although I know YOU know that, I want the world to know it too because you deserve the praise!  *SMILES*  To ALL who planned, participated in, and/or worked the para-con, I say, "thank you for welcoming me & making me feel as family during the event - you did a great job and I applaud you!"  Words cannot aptly describe how proud I am to be y'allz friend! 

My m'sweets ... my Ambien induced ramblings are winding down.   Hoping it made for some sense -- I've been meaning to blog it for days now but with working & life alone, time flies by! 

Hugs, love, & peace to all ...

Mary Ellen