the good days...

...when I actually had several or even one invite to actually GO OUT on a friday night

...when everyone I knew was filled with ambition

...when i was filled with ambition

...when I actually felt accepted

...when life was exciting

...when i had a family

...when new friends were so easy to make

...when laughter came frequently

...when i awoke EVERY morning to the giggles of the most beautiful little girl in the world

...when sadness was easily vanquished by a simple phone call

...when my house was filled every weekend with good friends and smiling faces

...when I had so many close friends

...when nothing was more exciting then going to see new bands play with good friends

...when dinner, movies, and fun was a staple

...when my phone actually rang and a friendly voice was on the other line

...when people actually communicated with their voices and not text messages

...when people seemed approachable

will i remember when loneliness was easily remedied and i actually felt love...

better yet....

will I ever feel any of that again.........