So everyone that knows me knows that Im never been the type to express my feelings in public. Have you ever wondered what happens when you have everything you ever wanted in front of you? Whats next? What happens when you got the perfect child, career, friends and most of all partner in life to share it with? I mean whats next, you give everything just to see them live a second longer. You love them but know that just like anyone else you need to provide for them. So you do something drastic and life changing. In this case join the military Marines that is, Semper Fi , The crazy thing is your good at it and everyone knows it. You want to see them do great things so you dont mind at the time that they are not there with you. This is were things get a little interesting, you find out your getting deployed, granted its the Meu and not like anythings going to happen. You know what they are going through because its the same on both sides. She says things that dont let you sleep at night all you can do is toss and turn, hope and pray even that everythings okay. All you can do is close your eyes and cry all you want in life is to have them near you cheering you on but all they seen to do now is push you away. They begin to lose sight of the fact that nothing has really changed your still the same person that they grew to love, and the same for them. Your friends tell you not to worry but even they have faces full of concern and doubt. How do you even manage with a this much pressure tearing you apart? You go to work and alway smile stay motivated even just because being optimistic is all you have left.I thought we would get to see forever but forever seems to have gone away, if we get to see tomorrow I hope its worth all the wait. All I have is our memories to be my sunshine after the rain.Know that even though we see things differently now I have no say in this outcome. I love you Alyssa
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