It's my birthday, too.  Well, it will be tomorrow.  I'm just posting a quick note to let y'all know i'm still alive and while I'm not sleeping as much or as deeply as I'd like, I'm here.  Well, more at Facebook than myspace, but I'm alive.

I've been experimenting with digital scrapbooking and I've taken to it.  So many free kits and templates and such out there that I feel like I get to go shopping every day for scrappy supplies and do it guiltlessly.

Dominic is now 2 months old and I'm more in love with him every day.  He is easy-going and has now begun to shower us with smiles.  He has definitely become more social with us.  He also is putting on the baby fat which is wonderful!  :)  I look forward to him having more than an hour or two without a "snack" as I guess I went into deep sleep between 4 and 6 am when Dominic woke up and I didn't hear him.  Tony did and went to comfort him, but I didn't hear Tony get up or Dominic crying.  This is a first in the last 2 months.  I know the sleepless and disjointed sleep nights will pass.  Till then, do not expect much from me in the way of coherent thought.

I have been battling extreme emotions and find myself crying a lot.  I miss my mom terribly though I feel her near, it is hard.  I will be spending the day with my kids and husband on this coming Sunday - Mother's Day - as I do not want to be crying in front of everyone at church.  I avoided this last Sunday for a similar reason - fast & testimony meeting is also baby blessings and I don't want to cry in front of people. 

My dad is home once again from the hospital and he celebrated his 70th birthday last week.  I made a little digital scrapbook (printed it at Costco) for his birthday present and I was startled by how thin and how much older my dad looks in just a year.  Well, I guess in the last year and a half.  He's lost so much weight --- I think I took it all for him!  :(  I just cannot manage to be on a lower carb diet right now.  I'm eating my way through sadness and tiredness.  Not a good plan, but I'm coping.

Overall I'm in love with Dominic and so is Tony.  I'm so grateful for this little man in my life to shower with love and attention.  His needs are simple and he is a little cuddly guy, both of which make him easy to love...

I really better go to bed.  I just had to wait after getting Dominic to bed to make sure he didn't wake up in 10 minutes... you know, just long enough for me to fall asleep and be woken up in the middle of a dream. 

So, I'll be 35 tomorrow.  I don't think I'll even get my traditional Mexican dinner because we've got a band concert to go to.  I'm trying not to be disappointed, but I have the feeling I will be fighting that feeling all day tomrrow...

Time for me to go to bed and sleep while I can...

Love, Dece