So basically I wanted to bring up mental illness.

A lot of people have many misconceptions or their own ideas of what a mentally ill person  is or someone who has some mental problems. Id like to think that we all go through certain phases in life and many times a lot of us cant particularly deal with the situations on our own. You know I think human interaction in general helps with much of the therapy involved to keep someone sane. People involved with people.

 I myself have a borderline personality disorder and every year or so I start going into phases where I might feel insecure or emotionally frustrated with people or even severe cases of paranoia to the point where I stop sleeping entirely. 

I would however like to get off my chest the fact that I myself have a phobia of mental illness. I dont feel comfortable about myself knowing that at certain times throughout my life my emotions have had the best of me to the point where someone else has to step in and basically take over for a bit. One thing I will have to admit though is the fact that No matter how hard I have tried most of the time Its out of my hands. 

When I start to think about the moments in life where Ive had to get things done and be in charge of myself and others in life and knowing full well that sometimes I am unable to do shit to help them out of a jam because Im the one stuck it makes me feel helpless. But you know whats funny is the fact that being in this sort of position helps me relate in a more spiritual way. Its kind of like having another person play GOD for me, you know. being under the care and supervision of another makes me appreciate my childhood moments again. Not having to worry about my outside issues for a moment giving me a chance to finally breathe as a child again. On the other hand it makes all my burdens fall to someone elses lap for a while and much of the time the wieght ive been carrying on my own is too much for others to try to carry. I am thankful that the spells are only temporary and I give much props to those who have someone in their care and supervision because that is a journey on its own.

One thing I would like to say is a special thanks to my wife for being there in those rough spots when life was kickin us hard. I am man enough now to realize that everyone needs the help now and again and im not ashamed to say Ive had to have my ass carried through stuff before because I just couldnt do it alone. Isnt that what life is about? Not being alone? Take the time to share your lives with eachother, it will be something to remeber. Thank you to everyone who supports what we do in life and We hope the music reflects your thoughts! Rock n Rant!

KKW