Closing in on the end of the year. I have started to look back a little. Something I really don't like doing sometimes. I mean it is much better then not liking to look forward right? This year has been nuts. The crazy part is I loved it all, Even the really bad or hard parts. I found out a lot about myself, and my friends. I realize now God puts people in your life maybe not right away but eventually they show God to you. It just might take 11 years. I can't even begin to understand what could happen later in life. I know it will not be easy. But nothing worth having is. I know God has blessed me with patients this year, Also the patience of others. I truly do believe that God works through all people not just the ones who follow him. I see that a lot now. The funny part He has most likely always done that I just am seeing it now. This gives me hope that He always comes through. I am by no means a great Christian. But is there such a thing? I am starting think there is not. If anyone was I think it would upset way too many people. I had an amazing opportunity the other night. To hear A Kid tell me all about why he wanted to be baptized. He struggled with pornography. And he tried to give that to God daily. I asked him if it worked. He said "Sometimes But I only give it to him sometimes". I told him to continue giving it to him. Wow I saw in him a determination to overcome this in his life. But he knew he could not do it b himself. I don't know a person who could not relate to him on some level. He is about 13, I wonder what I would be if I could have done that then. He did not want to be baptized for any other reason than to show everyone he was committed to following Christ. Well I look forward to the next year. I wonder what will happen then.