Let Us Pray...

Father God...
     I stand here before you today to discuss a lot that's been happening in my life lately. Not only have I hurt myself but I've hurt others. Most importantly, I've hurt people who care for me. I've hurt people who love me. I pushed when I should have pulled. I pushed their love away when I should have been pulling it in. Everyday is another fight against temptation. Although, I don't always give in, I still do sometimes. And I know I hurt my family and close friends when I do this. So I'm standing here today, Father God, asking for forgiveness for my past and strength for my future. Not only strength to fight temptation but a strength to love, a strength to trust, a strength to stop lying and hurting others with my lies. A strength to keep my promises, a strength to fulfill the needs and satisfactions of my loved ones, a strength to move forward in life. I haven't had this strength so my weaknesses and poor decision making have been pulling me back. I no longer wanna live like this, Father God. I wanna move forward in life. I'm not asking to hand me happiness, hand me a new job, hand me this money. I'm asking for the strength to get off my lazy behind and get this new job, earn that money, earn my happiness. Strength to do the right things, play my cards right, and earn somebody's love.  Like I said; it's been a big fight and I've been fighting all my life. And if I continue doing what I'm doing, I'm gonna continue fighting for one, two, three, five, ten, even twenty years. So I need this strength to end this fight, I'm not expecting to be happy tomorrow, the next day or even next week. I just wanna start the process of killing the negativity in my life today. I've let down my family and I've let down a very special person who cared for me. Cared for me so much that she stuck with me through all the highs and lows, all the do's and don'ts, stuck with me though all the wouldn'ts and won'ts. After all the lies, all the tears falling from her eyes. She's shed so many tears that she no longer cries. I'm here Father God with my arms, hands, and heart open in need of salvation… God save me.
         AMEN