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Alexandra Roach

Alex Roach


Last Updated: 11/17/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 18
Sign: Virgo

City: Nakkie Time,
State: Illinois
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/6/2006

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Dr. AC, Foo.. (2)
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008 
I am beyond sick and tired of being a child. I'd give anything to just grow up right now. Being a fifteen year old high school student is probably the most unhappy experience ever.  Don't get me wrong, I love the people in my life, Rachel, Rwan, Mike, Aidan, Olivia, Matt, AC, Rusty, the whole crew. I'm crazy about the film fests I've worked at, I could not  be more thankful for the experiences I have had lately.  I adore volunteering for Rusty, seeing him, AC, Dan, Mark, Jeff, Nick, Eric, Joe, Nora, Dave, lots, and lots of people who are awesome. Seeing my friends is another perk. But I digress, I'm not happy anymore. I'm sick of pretending. I am nearly certain that just not being fifteen anymore would mend my broken spirit. There's little options left, I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm tired of this. Help.

Also, Do monkeys make good PCs? Heheh, I still have a sense of humor. Even if no one understands it.

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Dr. AC, Fool for Blood
aaron christensen

 
Hang in there, sweetie. I know the feeling - all my life I was so tired of being "too young" and treated like a kid who couldn't possibly know what they were talking about or know what they wanted.

Times can be rough and emotions run high. But the fact is, life isn't about being happy all the time or even part of the time. It's about the journey itself and the amazing people you meet along the way. It's about taking time out to figure out what your dreams are and then finding ways to realize them.

When you say you're sick of pretending, that's okay. Don't pretend. Use that energy to live a truly honest life. If you're sad or angry or depressed, get really curious about it and find out WHY you feel that way. Find out what is missing and then go about bringing that into your life. And if it remains elusive, find other things to bring into your life that will satisfy.

More than anything though, be good to yourself. Treat yourself like the special gift that you are. Love yourself the way you want to be (and are) loved.

Finally, I don't know about PC's but monkeys are the best versions of human beings, dirty and hairy though they might be.

xoxooxox

AC
 
Posted by Dr. AC, Fool for Blood on Tuesday, November 11, 2008 - 10:16 PM
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Rivertown Entertainment

 
Hey young lady! Fifteen is not thre funnest age, but it will be over soon enough. Just stick it out and stay involved witha good crowd that keeps you out of major trouble :)

In the meantime, maybe you need to nurture that filmmaking bug in the best way you can. Get involved in local filmmaking groups, contact people who work in local filmmaking, work on some local sets when the opportunity arises. Also keep those grades up at school and work right now on getting into a filmmaking school if that is where the heart is. Worse comes to worse, you can always make cheapo little short films and post them to youtube.

Contact me and I can help hook you up with some local contacts.

Mark :)
 
Posted by Rivertown Entertainment on Wednesday, November 12, 2008 - 02:35 PM
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Joe Mamma

 
first, why am i not on ur friends list?? nevertheless... you are not a child at heart. tou are very grown up, even if you dont show it very often. tou need to talk to me monday. k? k.
 
Posted by ~~~Waves of Anger~~~ on Friday, December 12, 2008 - 02:36 PM
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