The travels that we take are always something then we expect. There are times when I look back in the past, and think of things that I should have done, things I maybe not should have done. I was asked if I had any regrets. And for the past 2 -3 weeks I have been thinking about that question. I guess there are a few things that I do regret. Somethings I wish I never did, or I should have looked at every possible outcome before making my decision.

After many months of leaving my job, I called for a reason that I forgot. But the people that were both instrumental in my promotions and my demise have left their jobs. The rest of the day I kept thinking about the timely fashion that all this was done. Its funny, in a sick and twisted way.

But I now sit here with apprehension. What should I do, where should I go? I have made some choices that everyday seems to change. I could be in a better place, than I am now. I keep putting faith into things that only hinder me. A roller coaster ride. Ya, I guess that is what my journey for the past 2 -3 months have been. Everyday there is something new to happen, or some new drama, that now has surfaced. I am just getting tired and losing interest in the whole thing.

I basically said before that I screwed myself over. And in fact as everyday unfolds it just becomes clearer and things start making sense.

So now once again, I will be on another journey. A path that isn't too far from the one I am currently on, but the unknown future is what scares me.

I have to go back to Watervliet. And make a life there. I have spent my time here, expecting something different, but its not. I am left worse than I was almost 3 months ago. I have backtracked and have screwed myself over.

I'll finish this, and say I am worried about the future. What it holds, and what is to come. We can't change anything, only live in the now. I have no idea where I am going or what is to come.

Thanks for hearing me out.

Later Bone