yeah, that's what i just did. not on purpose of course, it just sort of always happens. every time i say something honest. so every time i open my mouth.
separate family functions galore, mom's side/dad's side. last night at dad's side my brother convinced me to play a karaoke singing video game with him. we sang i will survive. actually he sang i will survive, i was too sober to deal with my reality so i pretended to be laughing too hard to sing. there's nothing like seeing your 6'3" brother singing falsetto into a microphone connected to a television. it was sort of amusing. he's a really good guy, they're all good people, just so....normal. after the karaoke i decided to drink, but had to ask dad for the car keys to go get beer. then he asks me what i'm going out for. i say "beer". the whole room stops, "haven't you already been drinking?" "i had one beer two hours ago". silence. concerned stares. "well, i'll be right back then". more silence. when i got back with the beer it was suddenly time to leave.
cher is so fly. she's on ellen right now. i am hanging out with my mom's side, which consists of watching whatever my grandma wants on television. i'm surprised she'll watch a queer. maybe she doesn't know. t.v. is really, really scary, but cher is looking damn good. ellen doesn't look so bad herself.
i've got to get ready to bail before the family members that i refuse to be around show up. this will also make my grandma cry. and when i come back, she will say over and over that she just doesn't understand why i can't stay to make them happy. and when i say, because it doesn't make me happy, she will cry some more.
happy holidays.