Here is the other very short chapter into the sneak peek of my book..
enjoy.. :)
EXCERPT FROM "STAR DUST"
TOUR...
"Now some of you.. or most might look at
me and think.. this girl such a slut... well I have two thoughts for
you.. one is, I must be one fascinating slut, or you wouldn't be
reading this, and the other is.. then you truly do not know me.
Because anyone that knows anything about me knows first hand, Im the
prudest Kunt ever. I wish I could be a slut, it would really make my
life a lot easier. Having the ability to just fuck guys and not care
whats so ever... are you kidding me?? This would be the greatest gift
I could ever receive... but I cant.. Im really just a shy, nerdy,
basket case.. that always falls in love with the wrong guys.(but I
know some of you will always just have your heart set on that slut
thing.)
All my life, Iv just gotten along
better with boys, mainly because they never accuse me of being a
whore, they never back stab me... and you can tell them what to do...
and most times.. they do it! It all started with my mother. She was
a crazy bitch, slutty whore? Probably in her day.. but mainly just a
crazy psycho bitch. I didn't always feel this way about my mom
though. Like say when I was about four, and we would go to the park,
and do what ever it is little girls do when they are four at the park
with their moms. But everything after that.... crazy bitch!
Then there was my best friend.. now she
was a slutty whore.. and damn good at it. I envied the way she would
use and manipulate boys. But then one day she just turned her back on
me, and became a completely different person in my eyes. Its funny
how when your so in deep in a situation, you cant see the truth. How
does that line go.. “you cant see the forest through the trees....
“ something like that.
After her and my mother , I have never
been close to any females. Still to this day. Boys on the other hand,
all my best friends are boys! Riki, Charles, Dj, the list goes on.
And thats why I did so good on tour. Don't get me wrong, Im the
girliest girl you'll ever meet.. But Iv learned to survive in a land
of filthy punk rock boys for years. Touring in a band for instance.
For those of you that don't know, when I was eighteen I was in A
goth/industrial band for three long amazing years of my life. It all
started when I was trying to get over this guy(are you really that
surprised)? Well, what better way to get over a guy then to join a
band full of hot guys!!! So I did, I played bass, and guitar, and we
traveled the country, like I said for three long years. It was the best
time ever. Driving that long stretch of highway, I loved those
drives. And I would often think about all the other bands that had
driven down those same ones we had.
All the places iv seen, and been. Such
a magical time in my life. Let me tell ya, if you wanna get close to
someone.. nothing says closeness like touring around the country
with them in some shity ass, broke down van! Getting from gig to
gig, not even knowing if we would even make it, cause our van was
such a piece of crap. Pulling up to the shit hole venue of the night,
with no where to change except the dirty, puke smelling bathrooms.
Now sure if your a dude, no big deal, but when your a chick, and you
actually care about looking hot... not so easy to do in a bathroom
stall. But I tell you what, I made sure I wrote my name in everyone
of those bathroom stalls, and those shity little punk rock venue
walls... BTW, id like thank them all now.
We stayed in motel 6 most times, or
motel shit as we liked to call it. I once blew up a toilet in a motel
6 by sticking an m80 down it.(our investor didn't like that bill very
much) Holiday in was like the fucking W to us. My favorite thing was
the rest stops. There are these nifty truck stops along the country,
mainly in the mid west called “The flying j's” They are the
raddest, dirtiest, white trash places ever!!! The shit you can buy in
there is just retarded.. Its like a truckers paradise. Sometimes
we'd play to ten people and other times we'd play to hundreds of
people. But it was all the same to me. There is no better high, and
trust me, iv chased them all. But the come down is just as equally
hard. Go back to a normal life with rules and structure? Ya fucking
right, you couldn't pay me enough. Luckily... I never had to.
Ill never forget those moments, they
played a very important part in who I became."