hmm...Im feeling very...agitated right now.

Bitter even.

Why is it...that it seems that every person i so much as have an interest in is so very very unavailable. Oh I have a bf/gf...oh Im gay. fuck that.

The one person I was trying so hard to keep couldnt be with me because he liked fucking cock. Liked it enough to throw away seven years...as if i meant nothing at all.

Maybe thats all I am...nothing.

I feel like an empty husk of who I used to be..what i used to be. I dont know what that was..but Im not it anymore. Is that true? Am I really just...nothing?

funny how so many people are something to me..but Im just..nothing. Yay whitney! the fat friend that will make us all laugh-like Im some fucking butt of a joke that I dont fucking get.

And you know-its always been this way. ALWAYS. Its so cool to have me around when cooler people arent available. Fuck that. I feel used...and I feel empty.

je ne veux pas rester ici...je ne peut pas...j'ai besoin d'aller plus longe de tout le monde. peut-etre, la prochaine vie serai meillieure.

Je jus...veux d'amour. Je veux etre me vouloir...quelqu'un? personne? peutetre...c'est plus grande a demander. pourquoi? je ne suis pas bonne pour cet chose? peut etre c'est la punie pour etre heureux pour les longtemps. Ce n'est personne heureux pour longtemps-je crois.

je deteste tout le monde maintenant.