Its just...since Im in gay ass group home/jail...theres not too much to say. I forgot you all exist. Im going through a lot right now. Ill be glad to get out the valley that Im in. So life sucks right now I wont lie. Its so hard to think or even conjure up any thought that is fanciful as I did for the past years...Im so fucking grounded. I hate it. I miss my freedom. I soooooooooooooo miss my freedom, thats all I ever wanted and for it to be taken most of this year, and most of the next, I can see why people think Im a dreamer, and how far fetched my life is (not including the jail part) As soon as I stop smoking reefer for a little while I forget how happy it makes me. I forget everyone and everything and life is boring and monotonous. (however you spell that) Ive let myself go a little so Im back on that again. I miss talking to everyone on here. If Ive said something completely off the wall I apologize for my error. Ill leave the fanciful stuff for myself I guess. I know Im 23 and wont be free again until Im 24 1/2. FUCKING GAY RIGHT!!! Im getting back in shape. (I feel like Im hundreds of years old, from all the adversities in my life) I just want to be stationed in California when we move so I can freely smoke...Ive fallen out of love of columbus, georgia. I wont say HinesVille because they treated me good there. My former blogs I dont feel like deleting them...but just disregard them if they are to flighty. I let myself, by being stupid, lose the one "thing" I care about and that is my freedom. I cant believe I have to deal with this shit for 1 whole muther fucking year. I havent watched hbo in a year it seems like. I just want some fucking weed I smoked 2 packs of black & milds in 2 days. It gives me a slight high. This is fucking retarted. I get my days at home by good behavior, If I fuck up then I could stay locked up without weekend passes. I was going to college for nursing, but now with an assault charge I cant be a nurse...Im not as mad as you would think. Ive falled out of society on purpose, now Im forced out by the police so I have no where to go besides entertainment... ;) I know that God has been leading me on the free-est path since that is what I want. I want friends to get high with and be down to earth...and a couple of other things. I know that if all else fails Ill be a stay at home mom, that get high and still kicks it ;) ;) so whatever. I was dumb and got into a fist fight with the police. I didnt want them to touch me against my will, they did so we fought. Anyhow...now Im locked away...I can never go back to normal society again. So Im hustling for real now...not just as a flight of fancy.
PLeAse DO NoT CopY WHaT IvE DoNe!!!