I had an epiphony today.

So for awhile I've been down on myself, on my life, everything. And today I was thinking, why? I realized that I do something not many people get to do- I experience everything life has to offer. And that is something to be proud of.

I've lived on my own and come back. I've chased dreams, and I continue to chase them. I've even lived some of my dreams, on some level. I've been in a band, met great people, made strong friendships. I've been to college, and intend on going back at some point. If I had a choice, I'd never stop going. There is so much I'd like to learn.

I've dabbled in modeling, and ended up getting off the ground a little with it. I go out and have fun. I've worked in several things that I enjoyed. If life was a buffet, I've tasted just about every dish on it.

I've done things I may not be too proud of, but I've learned from them, and I've grown from them. My mistakes, heartbreaks, and trials have made me a stronger person. I've loved and lost, and loved again. I've lived through some of the worst, and come out a better person for it.

Trying to live your dream isn't always easy. You don't always have fame and fortune. But you get something better out of it- experience. Self-fullfilment. Sometimes playing it safe isnt always the right thing.

I may not always stay in touch with people I've made friends with, but I'll always remember the good times I had with them. And the ones who do stay in my life I will remain thankful for. Life isn't about doing what is expected of you. It isn't about doing the routine, or doing what you feel obliged to. What's the point of living if you don't get to experience anything it has to offer?

I haven't been in a better state of mind. From this point on, if I begin to feel dejected, I can think about this, about everything I've done, and be glad.

For the first time, I can honestly say I am proud of myself, and of who I am.