...they make my core tremble, I don't think you realize the effect you had  on me...

I finally decided that maybe I would post an actual blog for everyone out there. Life has been so busy, hectic and stressful the last month that I've been so close to giving up too many times.

I had car trouble, work trouble, house trouble, and relationship trouble, all of this happening like falling domino's, one thing after another. I felt like every time I put out one fire in my life, another errupts. I'm slowly but surely tring to get it all taken care of, but it's not easy, and not happening overnight.

Jon and I have decided mutually to break up. It's extremally hard for me. letting go of someone that I love and care about so much, but I feel that it's the best thing for both of us at this point in time. Ever since he has moved to Eugene it's been one trial after another in our relationship and I've come to the point where I've just decided to give up. He means the world to me, but I feel like he is unhappy and I can't stand it anymore.

I have been evicted from the place that I currently call home. The owner decided to sell the house that I live in so I have 23 days to find a new place to live, pack and move. Definately not fun, but managable.

I know that life will get better, and I also know that at this point in time, it's not that bad. I'm strong and will make it through whatever the world throws at me, but like I said, it's not easy.

...And please dont look at me like that, it just makes me want to make you near me always. And please dont kiss me so sweet, it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow. And please dont touch me like that, it makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow. And please dont come so close, it just makes me want to make you near me always.