This whole transplant thing is freaking me out. If I think about it in the third person as a far off distant thing, it is not so bad. But, Reality check. The Doctor wants to take out my heart... how the Heck to I pump blood then. He wants to put in someone elses heart. But if my body doesn't like the Heart, it is not like I can return it and put mine back. Mine might be weak, but at least it works...sort of. but freaking me out more is the Cracking of the Chest, and having to sleep in those damn Hospital beds But with a New heart, I could work again sorry about the depressing blog, but after all its my blog, Ill cry if I want to