Hmmm I had an interesting last night about trust and it actually turned on a lightbulb in my head....I have a great career opportunity and tomarrow I got to go back to Plainwell to see if I get in or not....If I get this career job it would after a certain amount of weeks of training and I will be placed somewhere in the world and what hurts me is that I'll leave my younger sister behind for a while and I swore the first time I seen my sister and still till now that I will never leave her behind...I care and worry more about my sister than my own son...My son is strong and I know will be able to look out for himself because he will have and already has inherited my strength and brains which is more superior than a majority of the world population...What will hold me  abck is my sister...this has beena dream for most of my life but is it worth giving my life dreams for my sisters health and safety?...She's more important and is my best friend...no one knows my career situation but after tomarrow if I get it then I'll inform everyone...if not I won't tell a soul and keep it trapped.....Later