[This should've gone out on Wednesday 17th but myspace blogs was down]
As mentioned....I split a blog in 2 again.
1 part happy, and this part not so.
Here's the cut out...
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I'm bored out of my mind at work today, systems are going slower than it takes old people to use an ATM/ cash machine, my stupid optical mouse is glitching about and making me click buttons next to buttons I actually want to click, and I'm just a bit irritable today. I need something funny to happen, like the time when the security guy tooked his shirt into his turquoise undies rather than his pants, so he had his briefs on show like he was gangster (and this is a 60+ year old, grey haired white guy I'm talking about). I have to shoot off on my lunch today to post a game I sold on eBay, wish I had a new cd in my car too, normally it takes me ages to get bored of a cd cause usually I do an mp3 cd which can hold about 150 songs, but now I have an 18 track cd I made that is slowly turning 18 good songs into 18 "fuck no, skip to next track" songs, maybe I'll put the radio on for once in a while…
Only 7 working days left for me after today at this job. As worried and nervous as I should be in regards to the pending 'having no cash, bills need payin, and no income' woe, I'm not that scared. I'm rather numb to it, I'm nothing special in terms of what I can do, what my qualifications are, or my work experience. I'm just a regular guy, trying to make ends meet, I want to go to uni next year and upgrade my qualifications and maybe lead me somewhere, but for now I just gotta get a job and get paid. I'm not taking anything though…I have standards, not that high, but I'm not working retail or call centre, I just need some mediocre office job. Hopefully one that's livelier and more fulfilling than the one I have now. I swear, my motivation for this job died a long time ago. I even told my boss this, I gave her an idea to let certain people doing repetitive mundane tasks all day (like I end up doing most days) have the ability to listen to ipods etc whilst they work. One time when my boss was off I brought my ipod in and listened to it all day whilst logging CV's and completing peoples reference requests, I know for a fact that this day was my most productive day, as I checked what I had done and I'd set myself a personal best that day, the day went by quickly without any negativity, and as it came to the end of the day…I get an e-mail off one of the "managers" telling me it's against the company policy and I should no better etc…
This irritated me big time that I didn't get told to my face by her, so I gave her a piece of my mind back. I didn't necessarily give her shit, I just put my views across as to why what I did was good, and how a lot of people on my level agree with the fact that we should be able to listen to music. Didn't get a reply back from her, just got another telling off from my own manager saying I should email managers with such things and how she disagrees with my suggestion and that it wouldn't help people perform better. ….sure.
I really really hate these corporations with there phoney baloney chain of commands that make certain people think they're some sort of respectable authority. I especially hate people with fake manager/ supervisor titles who take that shit to the head. Some people here are so two faced, it's just sad to say what a pathetic person they've become, sure most people will be much cooler out of the work place, but since when does that mean you have to be such a dick in the workplace?
After I got shot down for the iPod thing and getting little warnings for things that the person who is warning me is a bigger offender of (I got caught sending 2 texts one time by the person that has constantly got her head down texting), she told me off…by e-mail, and not only this she CC'd my boss into this so she could think less of me also. Shit like that further dented my like for this place, and with all the seating plan changes, stopping any sort of occasional happy conversations about guitar hero or anti-chav debates happening. Getting stripped of fun to do responsibilities due to stupid re-structuring of teams, and with re-structuring comes new "managers" wanting to say there piece and try to boss people about. So much has happened to make me want out of this place for a long time.
The only thing fun nowadays is the cynical view that me and some co-workers have on others here. Sort of like how in that film "Shaun of the Dead" when Shaun and Ed are in a pub and Ed is trying to cheer up Shaun by telling stories he's made up of the random people sat about in the pub. Well…some of us here do that for others here, it's creative, it's funny but yes it's a tad bit shady…but what else is there.
At work we have:
The Penguin. Seriously "The Penguin" a trademark of Batman, we have a woman manager who looks like The Penguin from Batman. She is also evil, and a complete twat…so she suits the villain name perfectly. I pity her husband though if she's married…how the hell anyone could love that face makes me queasy.
Thunder Woman. This woman who is a bit of a side show attraction, she's about 50 something, and has hair like she been hit by lightning, and continues to condition it with battery acid, she walks like a lego man, and has a face that would scare children and adults alike. She also dresses really fucked up for her age too, she sometimes wears these baby blue silky pyjama looking pants that are very very tight on her…I've referenced it to being as if she thinks she is "Sandy" from Grease. It is a fucked up sight and I will use my time not working here to try and delete the memory of her and other weirdos like her from this place out of my mind.
The He/She person, she's about 7 foot, has big hands, has a deep voice (coughs like a dude), and when you picture her with a short back and sides haircut you can see the man she was. It started off as just a mere comment, but now it's as if you see certain things she does in a manly way, or just seeing her seem to be pretending to be a woman. The evidence just keeps piling up on that one.
Smackhead, constantly tired, falling asleep at her desk, eats crap yet is really boney, looks like she's on drugs, sometimes rocks around and does weird chewing motions with her mouth when she's got nothing to eat. I didn't even notice this at first but now I've been shown the light I am astounded other people haven't said this about her either.
There's a few more but I can't be assed making my blog into a list of these weirdos.
Obviously these bickerings are a backstage/ behind the scenes type thing, I'm not and no one else is actually as cruel to go ahead and say these things to these people (although sometimes they deserve to have it said to them when they're being complete assholes to people), but it just goes to show how crap the place is that it's turned people that don't really indulge in back talking into doing it, just for fun. They say Weed and Beer are things that can lead people with underlying mental problems to lose it, but I say that if I worked here for another year I'd probably lose it, and I know others that think the same thing about this place, and there are clearly people here that have been here too long and are just freaks of society nowadays. It may seem hypocritical to say things about people when I was just saying how so many people here are two faced, but these people that I don't like here…I don't pal upto them or even fake laugh at there jokes. I do feel like a prick to be babbling crap about these randoms on a blog, but seriously if you were here and you saw them, you would see clearly why things are said. This isn't like those teen comedies where you have bitches making comments about geeks, this is regular 'nothin special' people chitter chatterin about full on weirdos.
….anyway! As I was saying…this place ripped the motivation out of me, so I'm kind of looking forward to being shut off in the job scene, having to make something else happen quick, and then starting fresh, I know I can do this worse than this place (god help me no!!!) but I can see it being better, there are some cool funky people here, but they're few and far between in a sea of weirdos and people that have been here too long and are just boring furniture.
Sorry if this blog has gotten a little on the boring or petty side of things with my work rant, but like I've said in the past…sometimes I just have to say it and get it out in these things so that I don't keep going over myself with each blog being an anti-work thing. I'll move onto other things….
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End of the anti-work rant I had for blogging today.