 |
Category: Life
I hate myself. I really do. I'm getting back into the thought of thinking I'm really fat. I can't stop thinking it. It just won't stay out of my head. I've been eating a little less than I have been, really. I have my breakfast but then for lunch or dinner its becoming just toast. But now I just want to completely stop eating. This is what I think "If you stop eating, you WILL get skinnier. Just skip all the meals. Then you will look pretty." Why is it that I have to stress over this. Its driving me nuts. I know what will happen to me if I stop eating cause this has happen before. I was anerxic 2 years ago and got sick and fainted often. But when I look into the mirror I see this ugly girl. I want to see a pretty girl. A nice skinny girl. When I think of this, about being fat and how I should stop eating, I get shaky. Its strange. When I start to think I'm fat I start ot shake. I am right now shanking. I can't help. OK, now I'm getting of subject. But really, I want to stop eating just so I can be skinny. But I also WANT to eat, BUT I DONT. It driving me nuts. I know the consaquence's of not eating, but I still want to not eat. Yea, Yea, people I look skinny or fine the way I am... BUT I DONT! I want to be skinnier. And when I was anerxic, I lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks. Wow, is what I thought. I lost weight like that!
Why is I have to feel this way... Why do I care so much of what people think of me...
6:46 PM
Powered by  | | English | | Albanian | | Arabic | | Bulgarian | | Catalan | | Chinese | | Croatian | | Czech | | Danish | | Dutch | | Estonian | | Filipino | | Finnish | | French | | Galician | | German | | Greek | | Hebrew | | Hindi | | Hungarian | | Indonesian | | Italian | | Japanese | | Korean | | Latvian | | Lithuanian | | Maltese | | Norwegian | | Polish | | Portuguese | | Romanian | | Russian | | Serbian | | Slovak | | Slovenian | | Spanish | | Swedish | | Thai | | Turkish | | Ukrainian | | Vietnamese |
|