I was browsing and I found this exert on a blog called "Lovely" written by a woman named Michelle.  It was an interview she gave to another woman n who writes a blog called "Oh Happy Day"...

And it just totally snapped into my head, what i need to be doing...

"Also, I just read Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell (which everyone should read) and I found his 10,000 hour theory fascinating. He says the greatest athletes, entrepreneurs, musicians and scientists emerge only after spending at least three hours a day (or 10,000 hours) for a decade mastering their chosen field. Everyone: Bill Gates, The Beatles, even Mozart had put in years of practice before they became successful. In his own words: “What’s really interesting about this 10,000-hour rule is that it applies virtually everywhere, you can’t become a chess grand master unless you spend 10,000 hours on practice." Along those same lines there is a parable from the book Art & Fear that I like:

The ceramics teacher announced on opening day that he was dividing the class into two groups. All those on the left side of the studio, he said, would be graded solely on the quantity of work they produced, all those on the right solely on its quality.

His procedure was simple: on the final day of class he would bring in his bathroom scales and weigh the work of the “quantity” group: fifty pound of pots rated an “A”, forty pounds a “B”, and so on. Those being graded on “quality”, however, needed to produce only one pot—albeit a perfect one—to get an “A”.

Well, came grading time and a curious fact emerged: the works of highest quality were all produced by the group being graded for quantity. It seems that while the “quantity” group was busily churning out piles of work—and learning from their mistakes—the “quality” group had sat theorizing about perfection, and in the end had little more to show for their efforts than grandiose theories and a pile of dead clay. "

I must practice my art, everyday.

I must practice design, everyday.

...I guess first i have to figure out what exactly "design" is...and then start practicing it, everday.

I must make time to be "creative", everyday.

Instead of just sitting around, complaining about how I'm talentless...When I was 6, I drew a picture everyday.  I drew tons of picture most days, but I at least drew one.

And for a 6 year old, I was pretty good.

I need that childlike focus back.

le sigh*