im happy. everything with me and brian is just going well lately. we dont have stupid arguments anymore. and everytime we did have any arguments they were stupid and pointless anyway, cuz they were always about nicole. usually becuz she was like way out of line and did stupid things like leaving him sugestive comments. which i think is just totally inapropriate. you dont do things like that if you know that person has a bf or gf. whatever though. i dont care anymore. besides he just deletes all her comments and messages now anyway cuz hes so fed up with them, and honestly i am too. i really dont mind the fact that they are good friends, you can never have enough friends. and truely, i dont really have a problem with her. i mean, i can understand why shes upset, i would be too so i suppose i really dont have any reason for bashing her. im sure shes a nice person, i dont hold it against her. shes just really good at staying mad, i gotta give her that. but whatever, im not gona let it bother me, if she wants to stay mad then thats her decision. im just happy that everything between me and brian is good again. i was soo stupid for letting him go. but i think this was needed. i did stupid things durring our relationship and so did he. and we just werent able to deal with the problems we had back then. but now that we know which stupid things should be put aside and which things are actually worth getting mad about we have a much better relationship, and we both agree that after being apart soo long and seeing what it was like w/o eachother...well, we just appreciate eachother much more than befor. the grass isnt always greener on the other side. i found that out the hard way. i never want to be w/o him again, and i promise im not going to be. i love him more than anything and everything.
on a different note. i messed up my knee good. shit shit shit! so far i know that i tore my ligaments. but now my doctor sais that he thinks my knee cap isnt in the right place and is moving around too much and he also thinks that i messed up my meniscus and that could require surgery. so later on today i have to go get an mri done becuz i suppose the x-rays just werent enuf. oh, i really hope i dont have to get surgery. not that im afraid of it, becuz ive had quite a few of those...i guess i could say. heh. im just afraid with all the doctors apointments lately im missing too much school, and if i had a sugery on top of that then yea, id DEFINATLY be missing too much school. oh poo! whatever, i guess i can just sit back and hope for the best.
