Yeah, so I don't like psych meds. I feel retarded all the time at work. I'm tired, and scattered, and I can't concentrate. The funny thing is, that I don't need them. I am perfectly sane. I kinda stopped taking them, just a quarter of what was prescribed.

But I really miss life. I miss all the things I used to do. I used to go to the school at night and swing. I used to ride my bike a lot. I used to watch a little internet porn, but now all I do is pretend to work, then go home and cook something or watch tv or play games. What a stupid life.

Do'nt get me wrong, I have my Bradley. And when he is around things are better. He is so sweet mostly. And sometimes he really pisses me off. But hardly ever.  I'm the spaz, and he is the responsible adult.

I don't like myself sometimes.

I wish I had a piano.