I collaborated with my best friend Joshua Becker and we wrote this together.
He is in my top friends. :)
I Remain
The heart kept beating as time stood still
An expressionless face, no emotion I could feel
I crept to my room and closed the door
Silence, the only sound, nothing more
As I sat on my bed and thought about life
Why do people judge and cause so much strife?
I tried not to scream. I tried not to cry
but it was too overwhelming I just wanted to die
People laughing and judging me for who I am
Not accepting my ways or giving a damn.
I hide my face behind a mask.
I look to others behind a glass.
I start to cry and I finally scream
Please accept me and stop criticizing my dreams
I'm sick of all the drama, sick of all the lies
I put on a smile and wear a disguise
Being criticized and ostracized for different beliefs
when will they all just shut up and give me relief?
Despised for the wrong reasons and no one looks inside
they turn away without knowing me and just hide.
I have no one to turn to and no where to go
I am consider a loner. Just a lonely soul
I look for a friend but as the days go by
I'm always being criticized, are there no end to these lies?
Searching through realms far and near
searching for a way to end my fear.
I look to God and ask for his help
He tells me for others to love I first need to love myself
With that advice I would take to it well
I find the strength I need now I'm free from this hell
Tired of the pain, tired of the tears
I don't care if it hurts I'm gonna face my fears
I'll stand up and speak out and I will make them listen
No more lies, no more pain my eyes will finally start to glisten.
With this courage I will speak my mind
I now have a friend who I can go to and confide
Inside I am who I am and I'm gonna face it
Gonna stop hiding and do nothing to replace it
So all heed my words judge me if you will
Instead of being fake, I will remain real.