Music Videos, Reality Shows, Lamborghini Do's, and high priced hoes
Feel like I need everything I see on TV
Starts off as a small desire, but when fed enough, turns into a dependency
and if i aint seein it, i'm playin like i be in it
throwin away my daughters college fund in the club
and i aint even buyin dranks, just makin it rain...
lettin somebody else pick my hard work up off the flo'
Why? So maybe some shallow chick will think I can give her everythang she see on TV
and walk out the do' wit me.
And I'll play like I love her tonight knowing I lost respect for her when she approached me.
But I cant keep playin like this.
I gotta have it for real, so after I make it rain I still have enough to get a waffle AND sausage from Waffle House.
So I set out on my grind.
Compromising my foundation in order to appease this demon
This addiction to gainin money and dealin semen.
Whats my 5 year plan? Living day-by-day 'til that 5th year come,
but when the judge asks where I was at on Any Given Sunday, I wont remember one.
First I try to get it legit, but that money dont come too quick
especially wit social security and all dat other sh...tax
and I gotta get bread before that run outta style so i sit out on the block for a little while
and pitch this brown and white to somebody's child. naw...not liquor.
From trap house to strap house, cuz thats what these niggas rap bout
so now i have somethin to rap about...
now...somethin drastic need to happen so i can make it wit this rappin.
Maybe i can run up on them snitches thats been yappin
ok i caught a couple cases now i'm ready.
shoppin my demo tape to these labels heavy...until one showed interest.
they told that everything from now on would be fine as soon as i sign the dotted line...
Time to shine. I get in every club free.
Spent my whole advance in 45 days to earn the empty respect of a few
But i dont really care what they do because they dont care what i do
all they know is the reflection in my ice blue.
Now aint i supposed to be happy? Now that i think about it, should i be?
I've been put back into the same environment with a different set of tools.
It aint like the kids got a different set of schools.
Same block, same set of rules.
Same fields, same mules. I thought this was supposed to be cool!
I fought and compromised for everything I have,
Only to find out that all these material possessions are holding me down,
Keepin me from ascendin to the 3rd heaven.
What did I do?
Nothin but break every commandment as i hear the demon on my right shoulder laughin.
God, why did you let this happen?
I'm wakin up too late. Seems like i sealed my fate!
Cripplin my brethren helpin facilitate their wake
while my illegitimate children think their daddy is great!
I wish I could go back to 2008 and change my actions before its too late!
I'd give up the houses, cars, women, and steak
For the chance to give God every breath that I take
And not make the same mistakes that took me down the path to destruction and hate.
Wait...the bible says that if I just pray and ask Jesus to come into my heart today, that everything will be ok!
I dont believe it. I dont believe God has the power to wipe these sins away...at least not today.
oh well, what i got to lose? i tried everything else.
So today in front of everyone and God as my help
I relinquish these demons i kept under my belt. The money, cars, women, and material wealth.
And i stand before you naked, all i got is myself.
Only to be rebuilt into Something Else...