Over the past couple months you may have noticed me shirking almost all corners of society. I may have flaked on you, ignored your calls and messages, bailed on your party, or acted like a dick to you but it should be said that none of these actions were personal. You may have also noticed that I've doggedly refused to release any new music, book any shows, finish any collaborations, discuss any new projects, or do anything at all to change the perception that I've been buried alive. 

"Why do you act like this?" 

I can feel myself splitting in two. This is not a new sensation. But for the time being I've taken on a position of compliance towards it. I'm tired of half truths. I want to be obliterated.

"What HAVE you been doing?"

I've recently developed a sick fetish for shoes. I've bought 7 or 8 pairs in the last 2 months. I've spent countless hours trolling used book stores for anything by Murakami or Kafka. I've spent countless hours devouring those books I do find. I've gotten engaged. I've found that the most beautiful time to ride your bike in the summer is 6:45 PM. I've taken to playing the guitar and have been improving by leaps and bounds. I'm launching a moral attack upon my neighborhood with chalk drawings made permanent by the application of clear acrylic spray paint. I've obsessed over old keyboards like my Juno Alpha 1 and the never ending factory line of casios. I've taken to working 11-12 hour days 5-6 days a week. I watched Mr. Bun die. I've watched chemo ravage my Grandma. I've heard my family beg for help and not been able to offer any. I've sat in my house and refused to speak to anyone for weeks on end. I haven't wrote a rap song in months. 

I say that to say this:

I'm sorry. I feel a very heavy burden in terms of the world I come from and my obligations to make good on all the bad. I'm haunted by a desire to be more. This often translates to poor relations with a lot of people who really are wonderful and have been nothing but blessings to me. Trust me I'm working on it. I don't know what will happen in the end but it is guaranteed that SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN. 

As such I shall finally begin recording The Red Scare this week. I've spent a lot of time and money building and treating a mic booth, upgrading my recording software, preparing my computer, and arranging what I think will be a beautiful album. I'll soon be posting songs for everyone to check out. Some will be from the album and others will be just for fun. I wont be booking any shows until I'm finished most likely (although one can never tell the future) but will be throwing a couple grand galas for the record release. I expect to be done sometime in November. A beautiful month...

For now in the place of live performance I will start uploading pictures of my various artistic exploits and videos detailing different aspects of my creative process as well as unveiling a couple radically different musical projects. 

Thank you for your time.

-thom.