I stopped by my Godmothers house today. Not so much to see her, I had said my goodbye earlier this week, but to check on my cousins and Uncle (been there, walked that mile - it sucks). I walked into something I knew was coming, but had not really been prepared for today. Today is the last day. I knew it the moment I walked in. You can feel the tension of the family, you can touch the sadness - it is palpable. My cousins wife was crying, she said "it is so bad". I had to tell her, "brace yourself - this is the easy part - the rest of this day is going to get so bad. This is just beginning. After having gone thru this with my Mom, I know how bad this day sucks. Part of you is so happy that they will no longer be suffering, part of you is so sad that the person you love is in such pain and there is nothing you can do. Watching them die a slow and painful death is the hardest thing ever. I spent only about 5 min. in the room with my Aunt. I told her I loved her, and to have a safe journey and let everyone up there know I said Hi. She nodded her head. Even in the midst of such sorrow and pain- I felt a giant hug. I will miss her, but her suffering is going to be over. I feel for my cousins and my Uncle - the hard part is just beginning now. Trying to go on, the moving on without her. I am just sitting here waiting, for that bad news phone call. God, I hope it is soon, for my Aunts sake. : (