This week has in no way shape or form been easy.
Loosing someone, who i wasnt totally close to, but still shared memories with.... gave me a complete shift of mindset.
It gave me the wake up call i needed to seriously sit back and look at what the hell ive been doing since i've gotten back to Santa Barbara
it's been almost 6 months now, and i know i've come so far.... but am completely concious of the immense journey i have ahead of me
I was in the bathtub and i decided that i need to make a list of things to do before i die. Definitely morbid, definitely okay.
Have you ever noticed that the bathroom is usually a source of sudden inspiration? or is that just me?
Oh, ive been sober from drugs for 5 months :) suhweet
anyways
Short List : Saving the rest for a rainy day
1. Spend a month kayaking/hiking/rock climbing in Alaska
2. Throw a huge party and invite everyone i've ever met
3. Skydive
4. Learn to speak 2 new languages fluently
5. Be in the audience of Americas Funniest Home Videos
6. Learn to snowboard/surf.... WELL
7. Learn to breakdance
8. Plant 1 tree every year
9. Write a letter to Charles Manson
10. Find my older brother
11. Be the boss
12. Fall deeply in love --- for reals this time :)
13. Write a novel
14. Turn my one act into a full length
15. Drink beer at Oktoberfest in Munich
16. Learn to play a musical instrument with some degree of skill
17. Drive from LA to New York
18. Go on a rollercoaster
19. Stop complaining
20. Forgive my parents
21. Visit the town thats named after my family in Portugal
22. Raft through the Grand Canyon
23. Spend a summer in Washington State/ Hike through the rainforest (im doing this in July! woo hoo!)
24. Go up in a hot air balloon
25. Verona
26. Go to a Dodgers Game
27. Learn to bartend
28. Run a marathon
29. Stop being so self concious about the way i dress
30. Make a difference
i've apologized to everyone i've needed to apologize to
and told people that i love them..... and meant it
big break through... i'm not the lovey dovey type :) babysteps
These past few months have been trivial to say the least
and i've learned more than i could have ever hoped for
Calling someone fat, wont make me any skinnier
Calling someone ugly, wont make me any prettier
Complaining wont get you ANYWHERE
and you can never ever ever get close to someone thats on drugs... physically/mentally/emotionally impossible
I really really want to know whats on your list! And if you can help me complete somethings on my
now is the time where you leave a comment :)